tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-122975592024-03-07T15:08:55.064-05:00Letting it go....A journey in releasing the weightThis is my life's journey. It started about weight but it's more than that. Spiritual transformation has caused me to let go of alot of things and the weight is coming off in the process. Care to join me?MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.comBlogger90125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-41017326143977032352011-09-19T21:09:00.000-04:002011-09-19T21:11:12.609-04:00Swimming at the YSo I've been working out since Saturday and I feel GREAT! Swam 4 laps in the pool and thought I was gonna die! Sheesh that is really hard to do LOL. I realized a lap is one swim down and back or else I would've called it 8 laps lol.<br /><br />Swam Saturday, Worked out on the treadmill Sunday (BTW I Absolutely LOVE the TV's in the treadmill deal so cool), And today I relaxed in the pool after walking the treadmill for 30 minutes and getting on the rowing machine for 5 minutes. I don;t think I did the rowing machine right though lol.<br /><br />Does anyone else notice how ravishingly hungry you are after swimming?!?! Geez I was starving after relaxing in the pool today, the kids were too.<p style="margin-left: 15; margin-right: 8; margin-bottom: 0" align="left"><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#0066cc;"><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:130%;"><br /></span></span></p>MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-73434720581801925552011-09-18T21:36:00.002-04:002011-09-18T21:43:21.972-04:00The re-makings of a Gym RatBack in 2006-2008 I was a gym bunny gym rat or whatever you wanna call it and I lost tons of weight. I have done it all outdoor running/wogging (walk/jogging). Skating (have the skates to prove it though I can barely stay up on them now..., Yoga (from Home), Tae Bo ( from home), Boot camp style workouts etc., and what i realize most is that home is my place of comfort it is not my springboard for working out, hence i start then I stop then I get lazy and never return to it.<br /><br />Well back in August my son fractured a knee cap in foot ball during practice by stepping into a divet in the ground while practicing hitting drills with another player. His football season this year has ended because he has to heal. He was in a cast for 4-5 weeks and as of last Wed his cast was taken off and his knee cap is healed. But because he was in a cast with his leg straight he will need therapy and rehabbing to bend his knee again. The doctor suggested water walking to get it bending again so I went to the local YMCA and opened a family membership for 83.00 a month. They have an indoor and outdoor pool. Well heck if I'm spending this kinda money for a membership then I think I need to get my moneys worth. Yesterday I swam 8 laps (thought I would die whew what a workout!!!) and today I went and walked on the treadmill 30 minutes (that was a workout as well). I have not been active honestly since April so I know it will be hard this first week but I plan on being a workout diva pretty soon expecting pounds to fall off lol. Wish me luck!MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-86308957960291985592011-09-08T18:11:00.001-04:002011-09-08T18:13:21.664-04:00New postI'm trying to get back into this. It was really theraputic for me.<br /><br />I've had some serious spiritual revelations and my life has totally changed over the course of the past 2 years. MAJORLY lol.<br /><br />Can;t go into it now but i will I promise. On to a lighter me I shall get there no matter what! It's going to happen.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-44843791306580659222009-08-18T10:03:00.003-04:002009-08-18T10:11:28.562-04:00Doing good and hangingWell I'm in chapter of my book Mindless Eating and it has some really good research on marketing and analysis and how it affects our Psyche when it comes to food. Good stuff.<br /><br />I've been eating once a day and making the meal very protein rich and walking for about 45 minutes and continuing my yoga in the morning. Man that is really nice.... yoga i mean. you get a good stretch in and it energizes you. I'm on day 2 of yoga and I'm digging it. And it's VERY easy. I thought it would be really hard but it's not.<br /><br />I got my daughters classes straightened out at school so she is going to her concert orchestra classes extra early in the mornings. She has to ride the high school bus to school. This causes me to wake up @ 5:30 to make sure that she is up. Since I'm already up I'll grab a cup of coffee read my bible and pray then do my yoga workout. I think I can eliminate alot of rushing and being tired from running when I get home from work by accomplishing some things in the morning. I washed clothes this morning and my daughter did the dishes this morn.<br /><br />I was a little freaked out by my eating Sunday and yesterday i was kinda scared to eat something for fear of a huge gain but i measured my stomach and I've lost an inch off of my stomach can you believe it? I'm being concious of when I do digest anything if I'm feeling satisfied or full and I've noticed just today that if I stop once I'm satisfied there is no sluggishness and I can easily tell when I'm hungry again there is no question there. I bought a smoothie to work with me this morning. Usually I'd drink the whole thing in one whop. The bottle says that there are two servings. So I drunk some earlier and I noticed I was satisfied yet not full yet so I put it up and just now my throat and stomach were growling so I when back and got it and now I'm on the second serving. This is good. It helps me to determine and watch my intake. I'm liking this. Thanks Lord for helping me get it under control.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-22244477911073863792009-08-16T22:51:00.001-04:002009-08-16T23:05:58.214-04:00Flubbed it a lil todayBut I'm not going to beat myself up.<br /><br />A friend invited us to Benihanna's for her birthday meal to celebrate. Well I got the times mixed up and we got there almost 2 hrs late and our seats were already occupied and I didn't want to sit at a completely different table around strangers so we just left and walked around downtown and seen a couple of sites. Thought of visiting a couple of restaurants but everything was just too pricey and we really didn't like the menu's so we hopped in the car and drove closer to home and stopped at an Applebees and ate. I got a loaded mashed potatoes and onion soup. They were yummy and I didn't feel like hurling right after to eating so I thought I'd done pretty good. Then i got home and ate 4 cups of jello and drank water all night.<br /><br />Got up this morning and made breakfast for everyone but I didn't eat any, My stomach was a little on edge from the night before so I just had a cup of coffee and water. I think the creamer in my coffee makes my stomach do back flips I was in the restroom all day today. My son had a football game so we stood out in the blazing sun watching him play with me running back and forth to the restroom in 98 degree heat. Then we went to church and came home. I didn't feel like cooking so we stopped at skyline and I got a chili bowl loaded and a glass of water to drink. That worked out pretty well. I came home took a nap (heat was getting to me), then woke up and got last minute school supplies and fell into an old temptation that really I should've just avoided. Hubby was hungry and wanted some Mickey D's. I wasn't even REALLY that hungry I could've passed but NOOOO i had to get a chicken combo meal with a sweet tea. I was able to digest it fairly well, but i know that it's time to get on the workout and eating better wagon. I went to the library yesterday and I've picked up a book about mindless eating and teaching yourself how to eat all over again and pay attention to the packaging on stuff.<br /><br />I also bought a book on yoga. I have been contemplating for years trying yoga. Not wanting to mix my christian beliefs with the spiritual positions of yoga but I've prayed long and hard about this and I really need to get my body back into shape and I'm not doing this as unto an idol I am doing this to realign myself back into the arms of Jesus and get my focus and my energy back. Posture improvement as well. So i look at the health and fitness benefits from it. I checked out a book on it and I got a VHS tape to follow that teaches it. I'm excited about learning it.<br /><br />Kids start school tomorrow so I'm excited about that. Well I think that's really all I have to say right now about everything. I'm feeling horrible since I slipped up my energy is very lethargic right now so I can actually understand what people say about all of the chemicals put into certain foods and how it physically and affects the blood flow and things. I don't think I'll be eating at Mickey D's for a while. I'm trying to find what foods really work for me. I have come to this conclusion thus far..... Mickey D's is no longer on my list of places to eat, and I am no longer digesting lactose products because they do a number on my system. Pasta is limited to a very small amount IF I eat it, and breads are on hold until I can get whole grain taste together in my system. <br /><br />I am living be some bariatric rules, 1. protein is my friend digest it 2. water water water 3. exercise to stay fit.<br /><br />Well that's all for now. Until we meet again.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-62469877538824940742009-08-14T23:05:00.003-04:002009-08-14T23:30:21.054-04:00Transitioning to pureed foods mental stateI've made it a note to write about the mental portion of changing my lifestyle to keep me accountable to myself in all of this.<br /><br />So I've done clear liquids for 2 weeks with no solids, no dairy (except creamer in my coffee), and with no caffeine (besides morning cup of jo). Today is the day that I began to transition into pureed foods and such. I also had a mishap when my monthly visitor came around. I know this may be TMI to male readers (if I have ANY readers LOL), but I began to start having stomach cramps like you wouldn't believe. Like doubling over type of cramps and not menstrual but STOMACH Cramps. Anytime my hunger cravings would get terribly out of hand I'd picture children in starving countries and count myself lucky to live in a land and to be able to afford whatever junky crappy food I want to fill my body when there are starving children somewhere. Then the pep talk came in to suck it up and get over it and I'd quote my favorite mainstay scripture Proverbs 25:14 He that hath no control over his own spirit, is like a city that is broken down and without walls. I'd get some broth and heat up a hot cup of water satisfy my hunger pangs and keep it moving. But today was particularly unusual. Especially with my cramps and the hunger doubled up on top of a headache that I'd had all day.<br /><br />So because I was moving to the next level of my diet I decided to go to the grocery store and get some new dietary meals to accomodate this next 2 weeks of my transistion into learning how to eat. I went and bought some good proteins such as tuna in water (3 cans), relish and mayo (for tuna salad, Some walgreens nutritional non-lactose, protein shakes, and some more jello. i also got a couple of smoothies and some sobe waters.<br /><br />Went back to work to eat my lunch, made the tuna, ate two spoonfuls of it and felt like I would throw up instantly. For some reason I could smell all of the ingredients to the food before I could raise the spoon to my mouth and when I ate it just didn't taste good. So I'm really trying to figure out how this is going to work out. I've noticed that since yesterday (more TMI sorry guys) that my bowel movements have become a little more solid as well. AS opposed to the runny watery non substance of drinking clear liquids only. This actually scared me a little to be honest. I was wondering if after having 2 weeks of liquid movements and no change in dietary habits WHY would they go from watery to solid like that. But I have reasoned that maybe it's just because the monthly monster has shown her head. Who knows?<br /><br />I plan on taking my exercise activity to the next level with incorporating the pureed foods into my diet. With the clear liquid only phase I would walk 3-4 times a week for 45-60 minutes. I think on top of the walking i am going to start back up my firm aerobics and tae bo tapes. I want to accomodate the calories that I will be increasing to create a caloric deficit that will then help me to lose weight. My total of weight lost so far is 23 lbs. This is in a 2 week period. I know that is drastic but honestly I am at a desperate time in my weight life and desperate times call for desperate measures. If I'd gotten bariatric surgery I'd be doing the same thing and losing tons more weight so I'll keep on keeping on where I am at.<br /><br />So back to the mental aspect of my weightloss I thought long and hard about what foods I'd incorporate in this Phase 2 of my diet. Normally after such a huge loss I'd subconsciously find a way to sabotage my weight back up to the 23 lbs that I'd lost. Instead I thought with a clear mind and thought about what foods to incorporate and how they'd affect my body (lactose intolerant, soy reactions) and I made good choices. This is such a breakthrough for me mentally man. i intend to strive harder and farther to reach my goals and have God there leading me the whole way. I see the glimmer of Hope and I'm going from the " This just might work" mindset to the " This method IS working out and WILL be successful."<br /><br />I can look at myself and actually recognize myself what a great thing to be able to say! Cause for quite a while here recently I haven't been able to.<br /><br />Hopefully with me incorporating the Protein and the pureed foods into my diet I'll have more energy to exercise the way that I want to. We shall see. Lately my energy levels are definitely improving compared to 23 lbs ago but I could still use a kick in the rear on certain things. Well I guess that'll just be a part of the documentation. I think i like this phase of my writings because I know that no one is really reading and checking me out like they used to so i feel freer to write everything. The ups the Downs the TMI moments..... everything and just be me.<br /><br />Okay well I guess I'm done documenting.<br /><br />Until we meet again.... It's been real Love ya!MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-78839943337227198572009-08-10T22:52:00.002-04:002009-08-10T23:22:25.587-04:002 Years Later and I refuse to stopHello there,<br /><br />I'm not really sure if anyone still reads me or not but I am back. After a 2 year hiatus, an inspirational entry here and there sprinkled in between.<br /><br />I contemplated writing this entry...................<br /><br />Simply because I didn't know if I wanted to make this public anymore. Yanno the weightloss battle. But then I go back and I read so many encouraging comments even on my 2-4 year old posts and they really even to this day inspire me.<br /><br />I gained every lb that I'd lost back and put on more. I don't know how it happened or when it occurred but one day I woke up 25 lbs higher than my highest weight. I could feel it in my back, I was out of breath just getting up to move from here to there. And I would think. How in the World did I get like this?<br /><br />Wallow in depression and eat to make myself feel better. Then I'd feel horrible because I'd ate to myself feel better and what better way to smother those emotions than with more food? And the cycle continued. I couldn't fit an inkling of clothing that I had. All the way up to the 22's fitting rather tightly. I fit 24's comfortably and that told me something........ It was time to get off the rollercoaster.<br /><br />Health problems are one of my biggest fears. I am lucky to have gotten to the weight that I am at and to have ONLY hypothyroid as a problem in my life and not a humongous one at that. I don't have diabetes, i don't have high blood pressure, high cholestorol, heart disease or any of that. Blessed to be a healthy fat.<br /><br />So I kept struggling with facing my fears about it all. And amazingly enough I have started and ended at least 20 diet's within the last 3 years. And I have started exercising atleast 2-3 weeks straight out of every month for the past 3 years and still couldn't keep up with it.<br /><br />I changed my profile pic because this was me in November of 2008. It is the closest representation of how much weight I'd gained. And believe me I have more embarrassing photos to boot. I have a husband that loves me dearly and I appreciate and love him so much for that. But i don't want to be just a pretty face. I want FOR ME to feel like I make him feel young again.<br />I know size has nothing to do with it and that he loves me. I'm doing this for me. I need to get my health back, my energy back, and my glow back. Just a little bit brighter for the world to see. i cannot minister and be unhealthy too.<br /><br />The bible says to be in health even as your soul prospers. And lately I've kept in my spirit every time I get weak and want to cave in I say to myself. He that hath no control over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down and without walls (protection) Proverbs 25:14.<br /><br />I will never be unprotected again. I have the protection first off of my Daddy God. But I need to be naturally equipped to handle life as it hits me as well.<br /><br />So I've decided to do it. I'm on a bariatric diet. I didn't get the surgery but I am following the diet plan. That was my instruction in prayer. It also has equipped me to get back into the discipline of fasting when i pray. i have not successfully fasted since the last time I was healthy. That's been about 2-3 years.<br /><br />I've been doing clear liquids for the first 2 weeks (14 Days), I am now moving into the thicker liquids for a week. Like carnation breakfast meal replacements or pureed foods that have protein, and fiber in them. I started the process with a 48 hour Acai berry Cleanse with Water Cayenne maple syrup and Acai berry. I was the most disgusting stuff I've ever tasted in my life but my face is clearing up very well.<br /><br />I have not really been exercising hard as I don't have the fuel (solid food) that I need to sustain my hunger after a tough work out. i walk about 45 minutes 4 times a week but that's really it. I have lost 23 lbs in 7 days which I know is not exactly typical or the most sane of ways to do it. But i am desperate and determined to get this weight off. i have a 4-6 week plan.<br /><br />believe me I am a pro and could probably be a licensed nutritionist if I actually followed the dietary guidelines that i know how to set oh so well for eating. I have failed so many times before but this time I am not failing. And I refuse to stop.<br /><br />I have prayed to God about all of this and I know that I have to learn how to eat healthily all over again. I have to retrain my mind to eat with proper nutrition and not just " what I feel like eating", i have to retain my mentality to go from "living to eat" to "eating to live". I have to train my mentality when i go to eat delicious savory foods to marinate in the taste of food and savor ever bite slowly and enjoy the food, from eating up as much as I can because I'm soooo HONGRY and not tasting it until it's already been digested lol.<br /><br />I noticed something that I was kind of ashamed of to admit but heck this is my blog I can write whatever i want. But this is what I noticed these last couple of weeks. I am a closet eater. I never acknowledged it before but I have identified it and now I see it. Before I re-started this journey whenever i was home alone (meaning no hubby no kids just me), I notice that I eat and eat and eat and eat until I feel sick. It's like I'm hoarding up food or something I have NO idea where this came from. It's not even eating out of boredom. I'd just eat it because it was there. It was like my mind felt like if I didn't eat it someone else would so I might as well get mines in while no one's here. And hubby would complain because he couldn't keep pop in the house cause I'd drink them like water. back to back to back.<br /><br />Coming up in my house it was like that though. Every man for him/herself. My grandmother was a diabetic so we NEVER kept sweets in the house. My husband grew up spoiled rotten so he feels that we should ALWAYS have sweets in the house. I have to literally retrain my brain to look at food in a different way. I know that this is a mentality issue and like most people say weightloss is 80% mental 20% work. I'm working on the 80% mental and incorporating the work into it. But my embarrasing find (getting back to that) is that since I've went on this diet we have had SO MUCH leftover food in the house it's just astonishing. And I now know if I never did before that the food was disappearing quickly because of me. What a startling revelation right?<br /><br />Well i think this weightloss chronicles will be different this time. Because I'm retraining my brain to think with a healthy mentality and to shed the Morbid Obesity mentality that I've had all my life even as a skinny teenager.<br /><br />I don't know if I still have readers or not. But if I do I ask that you comment if you'd like or lurk whichever is easier for you. But I'm going to be as Christianly Candid as I know how because I'm going into the battlefield of the Mind to conquer this time around and I will be victorious.<br /><br />Thanks for your eyes. Love ya!MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-37776281375747976002007-05-01T20:37:00.000-04:002007-05-02T12:39:22.912-04:00I'm Still alive I promiseFor those of you that used to read me and hopefully still keep up with me on my OD entries (as that's where I've been posting as of late) God bless you. Star (Claritta) I know you stopped by to check on me a couple of times as did Sabs and neddie (love ya sis!).<br /><br />The verdict is in. I have gained weight. Amazingly not from August my last entry, but the weight gain started in Feb 2007. I got a new job, a very very stressful new job and began the eating out everyday syndrome because I was too tired to cook, too tired to clean, too tired to workout. I mean seriously this job has taken it's toll on me mentally and physically as it is WAYYYYY more physical than my last job. Also I am the ONLY IT support for 3 plants in America which adds to the new job stresses. On top of the fact that I have hypothyroid and my iron levels spiked during that time period I managed to gain 30 lbs in 2.5 months. YIKES!<br /><br />Well I am here to report that I am doing a little better. I am beginning to get a rhythm for the job and I am enforcing getting my workouts back in. Well not really workouts but mostly running. My kids joined the community track team and I took them to a practice and got a lil jealous at WATCHING everyone either run or get their walk on. So I went home and laced up and came back to the track and it's been all she wrote from there lol. I have to baby step my way back into the running game. Back in Jan. My LSD runs totaled about 6.1 miles for a PR of 01:22:29:39. Now I'm averaging 1-2.5 miles per run/walk. I've been drinking more water. I'm still trying to figure out how I managed 3 months with NO water. And that is the God's honest truth I drunk absolutely NO water and I NEVER ate home cooked meals. WOW.<br /><br />Well I started back doing things a little healthier About 2 weeks ago and I'm down 2.7 lbs. I'll post my sticker up for losing this recent 30 lb gain and then continue on the mission. If there's one thing I can do it's set a goal and accomplish it. It may take days, months, and years but once I set my mind to something I always accomplish it.<br /><br />I'm in the process of having my heart shown to me spiritually and I've uncovered some really interesting things. But I have more info on that in my OD diary <a href="http://www.opendiary.com/entrylist.asp?authorcode=D583986">http://www.opendiary.com/entrylist.asp?authorcode=D583986</a> (check me out whenever you get a chance). But one thing that God is really working with me on right now is using my kingdom authority over the issues in the earth. When I eat I pray against the spirit of gluttony and greed and self control and I'm doing okay but I need to enforce it more. I'm not on a special eating plan right now. I'm more or less eating vegetarian (except eggs and seafood), Lactose intolerant so I go nowhere near milk or dairy products, drinking more water as opposed to NONE, and moving more.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1155661818302926072006-08-15T13:04:00.000-04:002006-08-15T13:10:19.056-04:00Life is more important than foodIn my times of temptation the Lord has begun to have me chant this to myself in faith.<br /><br /><strong><em>Matthew 6:25 (Whole Chapter)<br />[ Do Not Worry ] "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. 'Is not life more important than food', and the body more important than clothes?<br /></em></strong><br />So that I might beat this flesh into submission. I refuse to be a food freak , and worrying about every minute every second of the day how I'm going to eat this and that. My days of food porn are over. For those of you that have been in the struggle of trying to lose weight or become healthier you know what I mean. For those of you that don't know what food porn is let me give you a small brief description.<br /><br /><strong>Food Porn - The constant reference to delicacies that tingle the senses to lust after although it may not be good in nourishment for the body. Obssessing over these foods, can cause catastrophic impact. Resulting in Binges, expansion of body fat, hypertension, cholesterol, blood pressure, and water retention in the body. Dangerous for health and incriminating to the mind.<br /></strong><br /><br />Well I am getting past that Food porn in the name of Jesus. And the when the temptation comes to eat something that I don't need that scripture always comes to me. <strong><em>Is not life more important than food?</em></strong> I'm not going to worry about what I'm going to eat or when I'm going to eat. If you read farther down in the scriptures on this particular one that i have above it says that there is no need to worry about what we should eat, or drink, or what we should wear because our father which is in heaven will provide for all of our needs. If he looks out for the grass in the fields and clothes them and feeds the sparrows of the air when they have no resting place so why should he not provide for us?<br /><br />I live in a country that is overflowing with delicacies that some underprivileged or undernourished countries don't have access to.<br /><br />The simple pleasure of soda pop, or oatmeal cream pies, or even Mcdonald's, Wendy's, Diary Queen, or the wonderful KFC. These are seriously signs of wealth in our nation that we as Americans have come to abuse. No longer do we use these places as treats or rewards to whatever accomplishments we have they have become a part of everyday life. And as a part of everyday life they turn us into gluttons. Making our stomach's our god's instead of the one true GOD that can provide for us. I read this in the bible too (it's funny how people discredit the bible for so much but the bible touches every single subject and situation known to man with a solution, including overeating and obesity.) The reference to our stomachs beijng made into idol god's is under<br /><br /><strong>Phillipians 3:19 :<br />Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is on earthly things. </strong><br /><br />These are a couple of scriptures that God has given me over the past 2 years concerning my weightloss and there are more. They are beginning to illuminate to me while in the midst of this consecration. I thank God for just being able to understand these scriptures and apply them to my own life. And show them to others so that they can understand them too. Learning my hunger and full signals and realizing that food and drink quite simply is just fuel. Fuel to keep our organs working and healthy. Thought I'd relay the message to you all as well. Hopefully it is food for thought.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1154701035220226082006-08-04T10:16:00.000-04:002006-08-04T10:17:15.223-04:00Self Sabotage 08/04/06As I reflect on this weight loss journey and as God gives me introspect on my life during this consecration I am beginning to understand the root of my self sabotage. I have stated many times in other forums and in my blogs I have become slave and victim to self sabotage. I can even recognize it WHILE it’s in operation. Now let me explain this to you. What I mean is I will be a part of a regimen that either I have put in place or just following along with a program that yields the best results for me ex: Weight Watchers, or the Weigh Down Diet. Once I get to a new low I feel great, but then I began to eat the weight back on. And I maintain. My Body is wonderful at maintaining. And naturally maintaining at that. I kept wondering why why why do I do this to myself?<br /><br />Today I was going to the restroom and to the water cooler to refill my 32 oz water bottle and I was praying and communing. And I wanted to make sure in my mind that this fast that I am partaking in is not a fast to lose weight but a fast in humbling myself before the Lord and allowing my own will to be burnt upon the altar of sacrifice and allowing myself to be molded and made into the pattern that God wants me to be made into. This whole thing is a self humbling and transformation experience for me. But I know that with all of this will come weight loss. And I’ve already determined that weight loss is not the goal it’s about spiritual enrichment and learning about my purpose and self discipline. I don’t know how long this consecration will last but God is showing me that it’s going to be longer than I think.<br /><br />And I thought about the lowest weight that I’ve been at since I have been trying to lose weight. Which has been 237 lbs. I was holding steady at 242 and I lost a considerable amount of weight. An amount that I could be proud of and see progress in. But instantly I ate all the weight back on plus some more and maintained at that weight. So my thing was now I know that I will lose weight so I’m already planning out how I will fast which will include juicing towards the end of the fast to prepare me to began eating solid raw proportionate foods. And I think where does this self sabotage come from?<br /><br />And I figured it out! It sounds stupid but I don’t think my body likes feeling lighter. Like I’ve gotten used to the amount that I’ve already lost but when I hit the 230’s my body begins to feel significantly lighter. And I think in my mind it makes me subconsciously tell my mind that I am weak. And I don’t like feeling weak. As I thought about this my pondering led to this, “Well if I’m feeling weak at 230 something good Lord what am I going to do when I get to my goal weight of 150lbs?!?!” But now that I recognize that self sabotage talk I know that feeling lighter does not mean being weaker! I can gain strength and get used to feeling lighter but I have to catch the self sabotage before it gets me to give in. Well I am going to go on and when I get past the 230’s I am determined to keep going. Well thanks for lending me your ear. On to the consecration.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1154700921359054112006-08-04T10:07:00.000-04:002006-08-04T10:15:21.360-04:00RECAP July 06, 2004 Explaining July 4th4th of July<br />Thursday, July 06, 2006<br /><br />July fourth was really nice. The kids spent the night at one of our brothers at church's house with his kids so we had the house to ourselves. We got up in the morning to do some window shopping for my DH's ordination this Saturday. He will become a deacon. I will become a deacon's wife. cool. I'm really excited about it. We have a conference that we are hosting right now so as usual I won't be writing much until it most likely is over. ( I apologize to those that I couldn't tell of the ordination for my DH because we were given short notice and alot of you guys are already going through you own things to be worrying about us. We know that we have your well wishes in mind)<br /><br />Well we went to window shop for our outfits then we went and picked up the kids which weren't even dress at 1:00pm lol they were running around playing. SO after they got dressed we went up to my Uncles house because he was hosting the bbq. Coming off of the highway someone rear ended us. But there was no damage to our car the driver at fault's bumper was messed up though. Well I called the police and he said because no one was hurt and we exchanged ins. info they didn't need to come out. MY bootleg ins. company was closed so I filed my claim yesterday. When the car hit us they hit us pretty hard and we were all cool that day but lately my neck and back have been kinda tight and so has dh's. <br /><br />****edited for updates********<br />Anyhoo we ate good over my uncles house and watched Madea goes to jail which was hilarious. Sat around for a little while until everyone started getting drunk. I can't stand to watch people act stupid so we left and went to a friends house and I let the kids go swimming with her kids while Dh and her Dh played some pool and playstation. It was a very relaxing and needed day.<br />Quick update on the car accident. Saturday evening I went to the hospital because of pain in my back it was unbearable. I went into emergency and got checked out and the doctor says he thinks my muscles are just bruised from the impact of the wreck so he gave me a prescription for some muscle relaxers and some pain killers to help with the discomfort. They told me to put warm compress on my back for about 30 minutes a day. If I still have problems follow up with my doctor. Well I though today would be better but I think the medicine that i took from yesterday has just now worn off because I am having slight pains again. I hope this goes away I don't want to have any back problems. Oh well I'm putting it in Jesus Hands.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1154700395064158412006-08-04T10:03:00.000-04:002006-08-04T10:06:35.066-04:00Recap ALL is well on June 07, 2006all is well<br />Wednesday, June 07, 2006<br />Hey Guys,<br /><br />All is as well as can be expected. I'm doing fine I''ve just been unable to get on due to work constraints and training folks ans since I have no service at home the only time I can login and do anything is in spare time and by then I really don't have time or energy to write an entry. But please no I do login from time to time read you guys and check my notes.<br /><br /><br />Weight is so so. I got down to 237 then after memorial day yoyoed right back up to 245 so is as I'm stuck right now. We're down to one car and gas is too much to go to the gym, AND pick everyone up from work, drop off and do extracurriculart activities like cheerleading, baseball and no. 1 priority church. I'm pooped by the end of the day lately. Good news is I can now get into the 16's that was my goal for the summer. Amazingly how I can get into them when I've gained weight is beyond me but to God be the glory!<br /><br />Marriage is marriage you know how when you pray you ask God to show you yourself? well I did that and God is making and molding me and I am starting to break through a real ugly side of myself through GOd and God alone. IT's not an easy feat at all as a matter of fact it is the hardest thing I've ever done seriously.<br />Okay gotta go back and train I'll update later. THERE IS MORE.......<br /><br />Okay I'm back. I am going through transformation because I see that I can't go any farther until I deal with this issue. It is effecting my relationship and it has to be rooted in order for me to be effective in my ministry. As I said before it;s a very hard and humbling process so I'm gonna stay like a little baby and have the holy spirit guide me through this cause there is no way I can do it by myself. i thank my 1st lady so much for allowing me to talk to her. I didn't want to share it with her at first out of fear but I'm glad I finally did because it felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders just talking about it and getting it out. something simple that I was inadvertantly doing to shut people down. now in the process of healing and breaking through this stronghold I am exposing it so that it will not be so toxic to me. It's not comfortable at all but I thank God for baby steps lol. Yall keep me lifted as I will definitely do the same for you.<br /><br />I really need to get back into the gym and get it together but like I said financial situations sharing one car will put that on hold for a minute so I'm going to do what God tells me to do and get back on track that way. The kids are doing good healthy as little oxes lol. my job is downsizing due to outsourcing but my position is still in tact....for now anyways and I see that I need to get on top of getting my technical certs to build up my resume just incase so as you can imagine things have been crazy around here. I have an A+ certification retest that I will be taking this friday so yall definitely keep me in your prayers.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1154699749869539792006-08-04T09:52:00.000-04:002006-08-04T09:55:49.893-04:00Updates on my laziness to post in hereI sincerely apologize to you all that have read me and keep on my about posting. I have another Blog that I have been posting more so about spiritual progress moreso than weight or hair. I haven't been as obssessed with all of that lately but I haven't given up or anything. There was a slight gain but it's coming down. I will post some of my blogs from the other site that I blog at to give you a feel for how my weightloss has been coming so beware there will be alot to catch up on lol. But know that you support is really appreciated and I will try to better stay on top of things.<br /><br />God Bless Yall<br />Love ya!<br />MrsDawsondnMrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1146937771595785052006-05-06T13:46:00.000-04:002006-05-06T13:49:31.616-04:00I can finally post YAYYYYY!!!Wow I missed you guys something terrible.<br /><br />I have been doing pretty good as far as weightloss I am a little intimidated to get back on the scale because it sorely dissapoints me but I have been getting weightloss compliments and my clothes are fitting looser so that's a plus. I have been consistent with working out and my eating is okay so I can't complain. I have basically put my life and carnal desires to the side lately and walking closer with the Lord and I am benefitting greatly from it.<br /><br />My Dh FINALLY got hired on at the job that he was temping at for a year uuuggghh. My kids are doing good in school and Little Quincy is playing baseball lexy is in tumbling and dance classes until cheerleading starts back up. I wanna keep them active and making friends and getting a chance to be kids for as long as I can. Trying to allow them to hold on to their youth before they get the urge to wanna smell themselves and as you all know it's a new day and age and these kids are smelling themselves at a very much younger age so I just want them to stay kids while they have a chance.<br /><br />I'm slowly working on getting my bills current and getting the collections stuff paid off as well as showing excellent stewardship in my life no matter what the circumstance thank you Jesus! I prayed for Financial discipline in the beginning of the year and it is coming to pass And I am believing God to help me to lose the final 40 lbs this year to make to a 100 lb loss mark by the end of this year. The clean freak 'thing' is still a work in progress. I'm getting there ppl lol. I'm glad I finally got a chance to check up and read you guys because I love yall and be prayin for yall.<br /><br /><br />And just a quick update of what I've saved as my screensaver on my computer to put a smile on my face :<br /><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4829/1035/1600/2005_0726workpics0080.jpg"><img style="CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4829/1035/320/2005_0726workpics0080.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Don't they just look so adorable and sweet? lolMrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1143826774425036082006-03-31T12:39:00.000-05:002006-03-31T12:39:34.446-05:0003/31/06Hey Guys I’m still here I am doing great!! I feel good and I'm blessed to be saved my the blood of Jesus and have a relationship with the lover of my soul. God is so awesome. I am currently in the middle of a 40 day consecration and God is showing me and teaching me so many things and I can hear him clearly I love that aspect of fasting.<br /><br />My only downfall is the eating I'm used to being on a schedule and I'm now eating after a certain time of day and it's killing me I have gained like 2 or 3 lbs I'm at 247 right now but I'm still working out and getting a handle on my eating and I'm doing much better than last week's epsiodes LOL. I'm on the low end of size 18 clothes and it's just amazing to me how much the price drops and how many pieces of clothing you can find for a decent price. Yesterday I went to walmart and found a bra in a 38D for $5.88 I mean I cannot recall the last time I spent under 12.00 for a bra! I got happy about that one. I was praising the Lord LOL. I went from a 42DD to a 38D so I'm happy. My waist so far has went from 51 inches to 38 inches so praise the Lord!!!<br /><br />I'm just praising God and sitting at his feet for whatever he has instore for me. I have realized finally what it is that God has called me to and I'm going about learning about that. I knew he called me back in July and it was confirmed in October but I didn't want to accept the reality of what ministry it was that he called me to. But I have seen it manifest and I now know I have to walk in it because I'm accountable to it now. So for the time being I'm just focusing on that.<br />Thanks for stopping by *waving*MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1142430336293509152006-03-15T08:34:00.000-05:002006-03-15T08:45:36.336-05:00Oh how I really missededed you guys!!!Hello everyone,<br /><br />I just wanted to let you all know that I am excellent. There is nothing wrong I am just terrible with updating as I stated before please be patient with me lol.<br /><br />Lately within my life I am going through some transistions spiritually and therefore it’s causing a lot of my personal appetites (namely internet) to be put on the back burner. I am still working out and getting stronger. I am still wearing my hair naturally and though I have been having some standstill and downright frustrating moments with it, I’m still keeping it nappy J.<br /><br />As far as the kids, Lexy is now taking some tumbling classes for her cheerleading and boy oh boy is that a sight to see. That girl tickles me pink with her cute self lol. She is doing great in school we were having some rough spots with the attitudes in class but that was concerning her little friends that don’t wanna be friends but then they do wanna be friends and blah blah blah lol (oh to be an elementary kid again). Lexy is increasingly gaining interest in prayer. When we have intercessory prayer in church and also when I pray at home she is very interested in the prayers and so I’m praying to see whether God wants me to begin teaching her anything about that yet. She’s been called to be a prayer warrior, God revealed that to me a couple of years ago but I know that she will know when he wants her to know.<br /><br />Little Quincy is preparing for baseball season and excelling like crazy in his classes. I may possibly have him tested to move up a grade next year once I see how he copes with 1st grade because his reading and math levels are at a 2nd grade level and he is in Kindergarten!! He and Lexy have their own kiddie Bibles and he is reading his everyday and just learning those big words with no problems. Even in my Sunday school class that I teach he is now in my class because he turned six and he is keeping up if not excelling others in the reading portions which I thank God for. He has an incredible thirst for knowledge so I’m praying for God to keep that in his life.<br /><br />Big Quincy is growing by leaps and bounds I love my baby (that’s my big baby). He is going through some trials with his job but he already recognizes what that is spiritually so he’s not taking it personally at all. We know that we are growing spiritually and for every level of faith that we reach there will be some obstacles to overcome whether it be battling with our flesh or problems that have presented as temptations by the devil that are trying to cause us to sin it is already defeated in the name of Jesus.<br /><br />Me…well I have been doing pretty good…excellent as a matter of fact. My weight is going through it’s plateau stage again but now that I’ve found the complete root of my problem I’m working to fix that. I’m still working out and running my butt off literally it’s just the eating part that I’ve completely botched lately. I am now going back to drinking my water and I am eating more veggies. I had stopped doing that consistently all through the month of February and stayed at a stand still. My clothing sizes are now to the lower end of a size so woohoo for that. I plan on being in a 16 by the time June rolls around it would be excellent if I could be in a 14 by then but I’m taking my goals one day at a time. Spiritually I am learning to saturate myself in the Word of God because the Lord is my strength and when I have his promises embedded in my heart and soul I simply cannot sin against him. I am learning to live a lifestyle of intercession. One of my sisters in church said that to me one day while we were discussing prayer and that really stuck out to me. Intercession is a lifestyle, just like Holiness is a lifestyle. It’s not just something that I do I want to live it. I realize that making something a habit is a challenge… so making something a lifestyle is even more of a challenge but I feel in order to walk in what God has called me to, I can no longer be selfish. I want to please God in all that I do so that I can reap the benefits of his glory and anointing. I want the favor of the Lord to exist in my life, because when I have the favor of the Lord in my life then there is no obstacles that can block my progress in him. I’ve been whining and having my fits about me, me, me for long enough. It’s time to be what God has called me to be and be effective while doing it. I want to see miracles, signs and wonders from the Lord in this day and age with my own two eyes. A couple of scriptures that I am feasting on as of yet are these:<br /><br />Romans 12:2<br />Be not conformed to the ways of this world but rather be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is, his good and pleasing and perfect will.<br /><br />Romans 13:14<br />Rather clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the sinful nature (flesh).<br /><br />Over the next 30 days I am in consecration, I’ve already been there for 10 days, but during this time I will be really tuning in and focusing on divine instruction, revelation, and growth for my spirit man so you might or might not see my commenting or visiting some of the websites that I normally visit. I just want you all to know that I still love you and I have not forgotten about any of you. Thank you so much for checking up on me and asking where I have been. That shows me that you really care for me and that I was on your mind. That is a wonderful feeling. I’m keeping all of me readers lifted in prayer and I hope that you all do the same with me.<br /><br />Well until we meet again or I have more to say God bless you and always remember:<br /><br />Temptation rarely comes in working hours. It is in their leisure time that men are made or marred. -W M TAYLORMrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1138846669910830212006-02-01T20:54:00.000-05:002006-02-01T21:17:50.070-05:00Planning my work, and working my planHey Guys,<br /><br />I'm still here and I'm kicking it strong. This free 8 week pass to Bally's has me seriously contemplating getting a membership and with the results that I am seeing. There are some really good things that I am starting to analyze and appreciate about this particular bally's what I work out at. I usually get up about 4:45AM get dressed pray then head out the door and get to the gym at about 5:30Am after stopping to pick up my aunt. I get there and it's nice to see that usually the same ppl are there in the mornings for the most part the trainers are not pushy in no way shape or form and they don't try to pressure you into getting a membership. There is onsite daycare for when I come out on Saturdays and my kids love the daycare center so much most times they don't wanna leave when I pick them up to leave. That is a VERY good sign in my book. It's in a convenient location and it's actually open before all other gyms are open. everything is pretty much spaced out as opposed to bunched together like some other gyms that I have visited. And the people that workout their are kind of like in a family atmosphere and the locker rooms are really cool you have your own space and don't have to worry about being crowded.<br /><br />All that being said I have managed to lose 2 inches off of my stomach and I've lost a total of 7.4lbs since the beginning of January, 230's here I come ;).<br /><br />my face is shrinking and here is an updated photo of me lol.<br /><br />God bless yall! Take care!<br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4829/1035/1600/2-1-06.jpg"><img style="CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4829/1035/320/2-1-06.jpg" border="0" /></a>MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1138196083366156422006-01-25T08:22:00.000-05:002006-01-25T08:34:43.406-05:00Good NewsMy wedding ring was found!!!<br /><br />Hallelujah, Praise the LORD!!!!<br /><br />I am going to take back the band that I bought and get my money back and buy some new runners with that money ;) .My other runners are about through lol. I had some slight knee aches the last time I ran and I've had these shoes for over a year so it's about time for some new ones.<br /><br />Oh I also have another shoe victory! My feet are shrinking. Praise the Lord! I didn't know that you can lose weight in your feet honest to God! I have a pair of the cutest Brown and beige pumps that have a cute little brown shoesstring-like tie up in the front. They are a size 11M. I have never had any problems with this shoe. Well today I'm justa sliding all around in these heals. I feel like a little girl wearing her mommy's shoes lol. I fluctuate between a 10.5 M-11M every once and a while but I notice that nowadays the 10's are starting to fit extremely comfortable. I praise God for that victory yall. Cause I am a shoe shopper and it's hard to find cute shoes in 11's and 12's if the make is narrow and I want the shoe anyhow lol. I'm just amazed at how my body is changing. I'm lifting weights and sculpting body parts and sticking to the cardio and I can definitely see the benefits. Praise God for Discipline!MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1138051108840781702006-01-23T16:07:00.000-05:002006-01-23T16:18:29.236-05:00Non scale victoryI have great news to report.<br /><br />Ofcourse I did let you guys know about me losing my wedding band because I am losing weight and I was a little distraught about that but oh well. Well I started feeling a little naked without my ring and so I decided that I would just go to kmart or walmart and grab another band. Well i went to KMART to get another ring and I thought that maybe I might be able to go down one size but I wanted to make sure that I could fit the ring.<br />My wedding ring and band were size 10's since the day that I bought them. In essence it was actually pretty embarrassing because my hands and my hubby's ring sizes were the exact same.<br /><br />Well I went to try on rings to get for my finger and guess what size I was able to get.<br />******drumroll please******<br /><br /><span style="font-size:180%;">A size 7</span><br /><span style="font-size:180%;"></span><br />How awesome is that? I haven't worn a size 7 since I don't know how long seriously I honestly can't remember the last time I've worn a 7 at all. Thank you Jesus for small victories. If only my feet could get smaller then we'd really be on a roll. I feel like a girl again!!!! No more boy sizes for me. Also check this out guys. This past weekend I decided that I needed some more running pants to jump on the treadmill with because I only had one pair that were yoga pants and they were a bit too tights lol. Imagine a big girl running on a treadmill in yoga pants lol okay now stop imagining haha. Well I decided on a pair of xl pants and as I held them up I kept thinking to myself like. These may be too tight fitting or small. then I came across a size 2x and i took both pairs to the counter with me then rethought it and decided on the xl's. I got home and began to dreaed putting them on and ya know what? Not only did I have some breathing room they actually fit me quite comfortably :D. Also my over sized shirts are just starting to get in the way when working out so I may go ahead and try out wearing my cool max tees to run in. I wore one this morning and thankfully the shirts weren't riding up my back hallelujah!!! I'm sigining up for a 5k in a couple of weeks. so wish me luck yall.<br /><br />God bless yall that support me beyond measure.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1137533950713330972006-01-17T16:03:00.000-05:002006-01-17T16:39:10.763-05:00Ups and Downs and we go Round and RoundI was doing and am still doing exceptionally good but I had a gain. Big Whoop I'm not shocked and I'm not upset. IT was a +2.6lb gain. The funny thing about it is I knew it was going to happen. You see it just so happens that my Pastor called out a mandatory fast for the week last week. I normally will only fast when there is a REASON to fast. I don;t have a spirit of rebellion don't get me wrong I just have to know the spiritual PURPOSE behind the fast. FOr more insight on that please read Isaish 58:2-8. Anyways I decided that I was going to join in on the fast although I was not mentally or physically prepared for it. I completed the consecration but the inevitable began to happen as soon as the whole cycle ended. BINGEING. uughhhh splat spew for a better choice in words. This is the exact reason why I don't consecrate until my mind body and spirit are prepared. I know excuses excuses but even in the midst of it all my gain wasn't too excessive, I'm still exercising, and my water intake is amazing so all is well.<br /><br />There was only one problem today while at work I somehow made the mistake of losing my wedding ring. Okay I have not paniced yet.....well okay maybe a little bit because I know that DH is going to have a cow. 3 years ago I lost a bunch of weight and while driving home one day liesurely letting my hand hang out the window to get some air my wedding ring fell off and I never found it. Sad but true. And all I had to hang on to was my band. A plain gold band. And somehow somewhere today I managed to lose it. It was very loose on my finger but I'm just surprised at how the ring just disappeared. I have no idea <em>when </em>the ring disappeared I just know it's not on my finger and I can't find it. There are some great ppl here on my job that are helping me look for it so hopefully it turns up somewhere soon. I've had a gracious divorced coworker offer to give me her ring because she doesn't wear it anymore and she knows how expensive they are to replace she's such a sweetheart but I'm gonna keep searching for it first.<br /><br />The bad thing about it is this though. I have had all kinds of junk put on my desk eating wise as far as rewards for job well done and such and I am not gonna lie I have been grubbing. Okay the madness has been put to an end but I have to get this under control for the rest of the week and beyond!!! I have come too far to turn back now and I'm sticking to my goals. I plan on being a big loser and I'm determined it'll stay that way.<br /><br />In the meantime..... Yall pray I find my band okay? Thanks and God bless you **hugs**MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1136904911080917102006-01-10T09:38:00.000-05:002006-01-10T09:55:11.453-05:00Oh Bliss Oh Joy The Plateau is brokenThe cursed 250's plateau is broken and I am steam rollin over the adversary. I have officially weighed in at 244.8 lbs which is 6.8 lbs down from last weeks 251.6 which also was caused by TOM. But I can honestly say even with TOM hanging around I still stayed OP and drank my water daily as well as getting exercise in and the WAR bag was prepared.<br /><br />I'm excited and looking forward to more loss. I am steadfastly working on not self sabotaging when there is a big loss. Somehow I have been managing to do that but a while ago I actually found out the root to by overeating I blogged about it a while back. Well since I could identify my triggers I have actually worked towards avoiding and overcoming them. I think all may be alright with the world nowadays as far as my weight is concerned. ANd I give God all glory for showing me how and guiding me into doing this.<br /><br />It's funny because yesterday when I got home from work my DH and I pulled up at the same time and as I was getting out He looked and me and tilted his head to the side and said, " dang I had to do a double take cause I was looking like I know that is Nikki getting out the car man she looks skinny." OKay so I blushed and it tickled me but I honestly thought he was messing with me just to make me laugh or feel good so I didn't really take it seriously. Then I went to my daughter cheerleading clinics and I ran into a member from my old church and as she came in I spoke to her and she spoke but I could tell she wasn't really paying attention to who I was and she had a look like she didn't even know who I was. Well, wouldn't you know we sat through the whole practice and after practice was over I was getting little Quincy and LExy dressed in their coats and she just stopped in her tracks and looked. Then she said, " NIkki?!?!? Oh my God girl I didn't even know that was you! You have lost so much weight honey you really look good, what have you been doing?" Okay so my whole day was really made better just by that one incident. I am telling yall it felt good. I came home and told DH and he was like, " Oh so when I said it you thought I was lying see you never take me seriously" then he chuckled to himself and went on about his business and then I had to explain to him that it's not that I didn;t believe him but he sees me everyday so even though he sees the weight come off it's really like a reaffirming when someone you haven't seen in months comments like that. He understood we laughed about it and went on with our day.<br />Then this morning while getting in our walk/jog I was telling my aunt about it and she completely understood. Then she told me that my other aunt (her sister) were talking the other day and my aunt was raving about how good I looked and how I've been doing good losing the weight, I was shocked that she even noticed cause she's never really said much to me about it. But I'm happy that all is well. My health is in good shape and it just feels good to have someone tell me to keep going. I'm so inspired I think I am just going to compliment someone so that they can feel as good as I do today.<br /><br /><br />God bless yallMrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1136578227694832302006-01-06T15:08:00.000-05:002006-01-06T15:10:27.756-05:00Start OverSTART OVER<br /><br />When you've trusted God and walked his way<br />When you've felt his hand lead you day by day<br />But your steps now take you another way ...<br />Start over.<br /><br />When you've made your plans and they've gone awry<br />When you've tried your best and there's no more try<br />When you've failed yourself and you don't know why ...<br />Start over.<br /><br />When you've told your friends what you plan to do<br />When you've trusted them and they didn't come through<br />And you're all alone and it's up to you ...<br />Start over.<br /><br />When you've failed your kids and they're grown and gone<br />When you've done your best but it's turned out wrong<br />And now your grandchildren come along ...<br />Start over.<br /><br />When you've prayed to God so you'll know his will<br />When you've prayed and prayed and you don't know still ...<br />When you want to stop cause you've had your fill ...<br />Start over.<br /><br />When you think you're finished and want to quit<br />When you've bottomed out in life's deepest pit<br />When you've tried and tried to get out of it ...<br />Start over.<br /><br />When the year has been long and successes few<br />When December comes and you're feeling blue<br />God gives a January just for you ...<br />Start over.<br /><br />Starting over means "Victories Won"<br />Starting over means "A Race Well Run"<br />Starting over means "God's Will Done"<br />Don't just sit there ..............<br /><br />START OVER<br /><br />by Woodrow Kroll of "Back to the Bible"<br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4829/1035/1600/Jesus%20loves%20you.jpg"><img style="CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4829/1035/320/Jesus%20loves%20you.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br />_________________________________________________________________<br /><br /><br /><br />Updates on my Weight<br /><br />I am doing well been exercising and eating right and journaling and tracking my points regularly so I'm pretty excited about the next weigh in. I know how I tend to get on the weekends so I am praying for discipline and I have made a promise to myself to journal this weekend no matter what. I see during the week I am pretty much on top of my eating journaling and exercising but it's on those two pesky relax days that I can't keep going. But me even posting this is mentally reminding me to stay the course and to stay on track. Please pray for a sista to keep it in control on that one.<br /><br /><br /><br />Update on Life, love, and family<br /><br />All is well in these neck of the woods. No drama at home no drama on the job, no drama in life so I'm happy. I did have one mishap with the baby daddy drama but whatever it's open and close case. Either you pay child support or you pay the consequences anyhoo that's his problem and not mines. Kids are doing great in school. DH is doing grreat on the job and will be enrolling in some classes to help him get some better jobs in the industry that he's working in. I'm really happy about that. I know that God is iin control and I'm just thanking him and adoring him and in awe of him at all times. He is really WORTHY to be PRAISED!!!! Thank you JESUS.<br /><br /><br /><br />Well that's the gist of my life right now.........<br /><br /><br /><br />God bless yall.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1136248654782998422006-01-02T19:00:00.000-05:002006-01-02T19:37:49.433-05:00HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!!!Hello there lovlies and Happy Happy Happy New Years!!!!!<br /><br />God has really shown himself alive in 2005 and God is gonna perform a switch in 2006!<br /><br />I thank God for all that he has given me to reflect upon in my life over this past year. I've had my ups and my downs but I'm still holding on. Jesus has helped and guided me 200% of the way through this years struggles and BOY have I had some struggles. But I'm convinced that my current situation will indeeed be switched and fixed in 2006.<br /><br />I don't really have new years resolutions but I do pray for certain things to take place and watch God work those things out.<br /><br />Last year my prayer requests to the Lord were:<br />To Help me Lose Weight<br />To help DH get a job since he'd been laid off<br />Spiritual growth<br /><br />God has allowed all three of my request directly to him to be granted. My DH has a job though it's a contractor job it is a JOB, I have lost weight in 2005, and my spiritual journey with the Lord has grown by leaps in bounds So I praise God for that!<br /><br />As for 2006 My request to the Lord in prayer will be made and at the end of the year I will reflect upon what God has already done.<br /><br />As far as goals that I am setting for myself in the now and checking results in the future is that I WILL:<br />Become the clean freak that I've always desired to be lol<br />Run a 10k this year in less than 65 minutes<br />Get Certs. for advancement in the workplace<br /><br />As far as updates over this past weekend. I went out of town for New Years Eve for the watchnight services that our Apostle was having in Douglasville, GA. It was a very nice service.<br />**********************************************************************************<br /><br />As I reflect upon my eating I can honestly say that I did NOT journal BUT I did alot better with eating had I not been concious of my efforts to lose weight. Tomorrow is WI day and I know that there will be a gain BUT I'm okay with that. It's on to bigger and better things. I am determined to believe that this journey is not as hard as I make it out to be. It's funny when I lost the first 20-30 lbs of weight in the beginning it's like the pounds came off just from small changes that weren't too drastic. But when I hit the 50lb lost mark it's like it's been a constant struggle! I can maintain at this weight very well. I've been plateaued for since May 2005 with weights between 255-250. As I look back upon my life i was actually stuck at around 250 for a long time though before I began to gain more. As a matter of fact 250 was my normal weight for quite some time so maybe that is why it's so hard for my body to let go of that weigh at this stage?? I dunno I'm just guessing on this one but I am determined to lost this weight. I have finally made it to comfortably fitting into my size 18's and 1x-2x shirts and by the summertime I atleast want to be in a 14-16 in clothes. I know it's a goal but it can be reached!<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4829/1035/1600/strawset.jpg"><img style="CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4829/1035/320/strawset.jpg" border="0" /></a>d.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1135782652894604902005-12-28T09:57:00.000-05:002005-12-28T10:11:08.796-05:00The Firm's Tough Tape 2, Oh my aching Buttocks!!!!!IF there is anyone out there looking for a tough workout to amp up your cardio and weight training try this out. <a href="http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/B00005T336/104-0135804-4319176?v=glance">http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/B00005T336/104-0135804-4319176?v=glance</a><br /><br /><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4829/1035/1600/the%20firm.jpg"><img style="CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4829/1035/320/the%20firm.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br />It's a 45 minute nonstop workout that works both upper body and lower body and abdominals and Ohhh BABY is it tough. I can honestly say that this tape is by far one of the hardest workouts I;ve ever had.<br /><br />My glutes(butt) and Thighs are still on fiyah and I did the workout 2 days ago. But ofcourse me being the competitive little soul that I am loves a challenge so I'm gonna work this tough tape workout until it's easy and cheesy for me. I'll continue to think results and slim my body in the process.<br /><br />I thought I'd give reviews for you all out there looking for a "challenging" workout and need to kick up the fiyah and switch it up. It's on sale on Amazon for $0.25!MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12297559.post-1135647490297046362005-12-26T20:36:00.000-05:002005-12-26T20:38:10.313-05:00Day after ChristmasHey guys,<br /><br />Okay I actually stayed OP for Christmas yaaayyyyyy *does happy dance*<br />Now I have to stay focused the rest of this week. Leftovers are no joke. Now I'm trying out a new workout the tough tape 2 vhs tape from my FIRMS set. Pray for me yall.MrsDawsondnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15172841067231087734noreply@blogger.com1