Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Good News

My wedding ring was found!!!

Hallelujah, Praise the LORD!!!!

I am going to take back the band that I bought and get my money back and buy some new runners with that money ;) .My other runners are about through lol. I had some slight knee aches the last time I ran and I've had these shoes for over a year so it's about time for some new ones.

Oh I also have another shoe victory! My feet are shrinking. Praise the Lord! I didn't know that you can lose weight in your feet honest to God! I have a pair of the cutest Brown and beige pumps that have a cute little brown shoesstring-like tie up in the front. They are a size 11M. I have never had any problems with this shoe. Well today I'm justa sliding all around in these heals. I feel like a little girl wearing her mommy's shoes lol. I fluctuate between a 10.5 M-11M every once and a while but I notice that nowadays the 10's are starting to fit extremely comfortable. I praise God for that victory yall. Cause I am a shoe shopper and it's hard to find cute shoes in 11's and 12's if the make is narrow and I want the shoe anyhow lol. I'm just amazed at how my body is changing. I'm lifting weights and sculpting body parts and sticking to the cardio and I can definitely see the benefits. Praise God for Discipline!

Monday, January 23, 2006

Non scale victory

I have great news to report.

Ofcourse I did let you guys know about me losing my wedding band because I am losing weight and I was a little distraught about that but oh well. Well I started feeling a little naked without my ring and so I decided that I would just go to kmart or walmart and grab another band. Well i went to KMART to get another ring and I thought that maybe I might be able to go down one size but I wanted to make sure that I could fit the ring.
My wedding ring and band were size 10's since the day that I bought them. In essence it was actually pretty embarrassing because my hands and my hubby's ring sizes were the exact same.

Well I went to try on rings to get for my finger and guess what size I was able to get.
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A size 7

How awesome is that? I haven't worn a size 7 since I don't know how long seriously I honestly can't remember the last time I've worn a 7 at all. Thank you Jesus for small victories. If only my feet could get smaller then we'd really be on a roll. I feel like a girl again!!!! No more boy sizes for me. Also check this out guys. This past weekend I decided that I needed some more running pants to jump on the treadmill with because I only had one pair that were yoga pants and they were a bit too tights lol. Imagine a big girl running on a treadmill in yoga pants lol okay now stop imagining haha. Well I decided on a pair of xl pants and as I held them up I kept thinking to myself like. These may be too tight fitting or small. then I came across a size 2x and i took both pairs to the counter with me then rethought it and decided on the xl's. I got home and began to dreaed putting them on and ya know what? Not only did I have some breathing room they actually fit me quite comfortably :D. Also my over sized shirts are just starting to get in the way when working out so I may go ahead and try out wearing my cool max tees to run in. I wore one this morning and thankfully the shirts weren't riding up my back hallelujah!!! I'm sigining up for a 5k in a couple of weeks. so wish me luck yall.

God bless yall that support me beyond measure.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Ups and Downs and we go Round and Round

I was doing and am still doing exceptionally good but I had a gain. Big Whoop I'm not shocked and I'm not upset. IT was a +2.6lb gain. The funny thing about it is I knew it was going to happen. You see it just so happens that my Pastor called out a mandatory fast for the week last week. I normally will only fast when there is a REASON to fast. I don;t have a spirit of rebellion don't get me wrong I just have to know the spiritual PURPOSE behind the fast. FOr more insight on that please read Isaish 58:2-8. Anyways I decided that I was going to join in on the fast although I was not mentally or physically prepared for it. I completed the consecration but the inevitable began to happen as soon as the whole cycle ended. BINGEING. uughhhh splat spew for a better choice in words. This is the exact reason why I don't consecrate until my mind body and spirit are prepared. I know excuses excuses but even in the midst of it all my gain wasn't too excessive, I'm still exercising, and my water intake is amazing so all is well.

There was only one problem today while at work I somehow made the mistake of losing my wedding ring. Okay I have not paniced yet.....well okay maybe a little bit because I know that DH is going to have a cow. 3 years ago I lost a bunch of weight and while driving home one day liesurely letting my hand hang out the window to get some air my wedding ring fell off and I never found it. Sad but true. And all I had to hang on to was my band. A plain gold band. And somehow somewhere today I managed to lose it. It was very loose on my finger but I'm just surprised at how the ring just disappeared. I have no idea when the ring disappeared I just know it's not on my finger and I can't find it. There are some great ppl here on my job that are helping me look for it so hopefully it turns up somewhere soon. I've had a gracious divorced coworker offer to give me her ring because she doesn't wear it anymore and she knows how expensive they are to replace she's such a sweetheart but I'm gonna keep searching for it first.

The bad thing about it is this though. I have had all kinds of junk put on my desk eating wise as far as rewards for job well done and such and I am not gonna lie I have been grubbing. Okay the madness has been put to an end but I have to get this under control for the rest of the week and beyond!!! I have come too far to turn back now and I'm sticking to my goals. I plan on being a big loser and I'm determined it'll stay that way.

In the meantime..... Yall pray I find my band okay? Thanks and God bless you **hugs**

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Oh Bliss Oh Joy The Plateau is broken

The cursed 250's plateau is broken and I am steam rollin over the adversary. I have officially weighed in at 244.8 lbs which is 6.8 lbs down from last weeks 251.6 which also was caused by TOM. But I can honestly say even with TOM hanging around I still stayed OP and drank my water daily as well as getting exercise in and the WAR bag was prepared.

I'm excited and looking forward to more loss. I am steadfastly working on not self sabotaging when there is a big loss. Somehow I have been managing to do that but a while ago I actually found out the root to by overeating I blogged about it a while back. Well since I could identify my triggers I have actually worked towards avoiding and overcoming them. I think all may be alright with the world nowadays as far as my weight is concerned. ANd I give God all glory for showing me how and guiding me into doing this.

It's funny because yesterday when I got home from work my DH and I pulled up at the same time and as I was getting out He looked and me and tilted his head to the side and said, " dang I had to do a double take cause I was looking like I know that is Nikki getting out the car man she looks skinny." OKay so I blushed and it tickled me but I honestly thought he was messing with me just to make me laugh or feel good so I didn't really take it seriously. Then I went to my daughter cheerleading clinics and I ran into a member from my old church and as she came in I spoke to her and she spoke but I could tell she wasn't really paying attention to who I was and she had a look like she didn't even know who I was. Well, wouldn't you know we sat through the whole practice and after practice was over I was getting little Quincy and LExy dressed in their coats and she just stopped in her tracks and looked. Then she said, " NIkki?!?!? Oh my God girl I didn't even know that was you! You have lost so much weight honey you really look good, what have you been doing?" Okay so my whole day was really made better just by that one incident. I am telling yall it felt good. I came home and told DH and he was like, " Oh so when I said it you thought I was lying see you never take me seriously" then he chuckled to himself and went on about his business and then I had to explain to him that it's not that I didn;t believe him but he sees me everyday so even though he sees the weight come off it's really like a reaffirming when someone you haven't seen in months comments like that. He understood we laughed about it and went on with our day.
Then this morning while getting in our walk/jog I was telling my aunt about it and she completely understood. Then she told me that my other aunt (her sister) were talking the other day and my aunt was raving about how good I looked and how I've been doing good losing the weight, I was shocked that she even noticed cause she's never really said much to me about it. But I'm happy that all is well. My health is in good shape and it just feels good to have someone tell me to keep going. I'm so inspired I think I am just going to compliment someone so that they can feel as good as I do today.


God bless yall

Friday, January 06, 2006

Start Over

START OVER

When you've trusted God and walked his way
When you've felt his hand lead you day by day
But your steps now take you another way ...
Start over.

When you've made your plans and they've gone awry
When you've tried your best and there's no more try
When you've failed yourself and you don't know why ...
Start over.

When you've told your friends what you plan to do
When you've trusted them and they didn't come through
And you're all alone and it's up to you ...
Start over.

When you've failed your kids and they're grown and gone
When you've done your best but it's turned out wrong
And now your grandchildren come along ...
Start over.

When you've prayed to God so you'll know his will
When you've prayed and prayed and you don't know still ...
When you want to stop cause you've had your fill ...
Start over.

When you think you're finished and want to quit
When you've bottomed out in life's deepest pit
When you've tried and tried to get out of it ...
Start over.

When the year has been long and successes few
When December comes and you're feeling blue
God gives a January just for you ...
Start over.

Starting over means "Victories Won"
Starting over means "A Race Well Run"
Starting over means "God's Will Done"
Don't just sit there ..............

START OVER

by Woodrow Kroll of "Back to the Bible"







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Updates on my Weight

I am doing well been exercising and eating right and journaling and tracking my points regularly so I'm pretty excited about the next weigh in. I know how I tend to get on the weekends so I am praying for discipline and I have made a promise to myself to journal this weekend no matter what. I see during the week I am pretty much on top of my eating journaling and exercising but it's on those two pesky relax days that I can't keep going. But me even posting this is mentally reminding me to stay the course and to stay on track. Please pray for a sista to keep it in control on that one.



Update on Life, love, and family

All is well in these neck of the woods. No drama at home no drama on the job, no drama in life so I'm happy. I did have one mishap with the baby daddy drama but whatever it's open and close case. Either you pay child support or you pay the consequences anyhoo that's his problem and not mines. Kids are doing great in school. DH is doing grreat on the job and will be enrolling in some classes to help him get some better jobs in the industry that he's working in. I'm really happy about that. I know that God is iin control and I'm just thanking him and adoring him and in awe of him at all times. He is really WORTHY to be PRAISED!!!! Thank you JESUS.



Well that's the gist of my life right now.........



God bless yall.

Monday, January 02, 2006

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!!!

Hello there lovlies and Happy Happy Happy New Years!!!!!

God has really shown himself alive in 2005 and God is gonna perform a switch in 2006!

I thank God for all that he has given me to reflect upon in my life over this past year. I've had my ups and my downs but I'm still holding on. Jesus has helped and guided me 200% of the way through this years struggles and BOY have I had some struggles. But I'm convinced that my current situation will indeeed be switched and fixed in 2006.

I don't really have new years resolutions but I do pray for certain things to take place and watch God work those things out.

Last year my prayer requests to the Lord were:
To Help me Lose Weight
To help DH get a job since he'd been laid off
Spiritual growth

God has allowed all three of my request directly to him to be granted. My DH has a job though it's a contractor job it is a JOB, I have lost weight in 2005, and my spiritual journey with the Lord has grown by leaps in bounds So I praise God for that!

As for 2006 My request to the Lord in prayer will be made and at the end of the year I will reflect upon what God has already done.

As far as goals that I am setting for myself in the now and checking results in the future is that I WILL:
Become the clean freak that I've always desired to be lol
Run a 10k this year in less than 65 minutes
Get Certs. for advancement in the workplace

As far as updates over this past weekend. I went out of town for New Years Eve for the watchnight services that our Apostle was having in Douglasville, GA. It was a very nice service.
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As I reflect upon my eating I can honestly say that I did NOT journal BUT I did alot better with eating had I not been concious of my efforts to lose weight. Tomorrow is WI day and I know that there will be a gain BUT I'm okay with that. It's on to bigger and better things. I am determined to believe that this journey is not as hard as I make it out to be. It's funny when I lost the first 20-30 lbs of weight in the beginning it's like the pounds came off just from small changes that weren't too drastic. But when I hit the 50lb lost mark it's like it's been a constant struggle! I can maintain at this weight very well. I've been plateaued for since May 2005 with weights between 255-250. As I look back upon my life i was actually stuck at around 250 for a long time though before I began to gain more. As a matter of fact 250 was my normal weight for quite some time so maybe that is why it's so hard for my body to let go of that weigh at this stage?? I dunno I'm just guessing on this one but I am determined to lost this weight. I have finally made it to comfortably fitting into my size 18's and 1x-2x shirts and by the summertime I atleast want to be in a 14-16 in clothes. I know it's a goal but it can be reached!d.