Non scale Victories

Guess what yall?

I can now run for 1 hour skraight (excuse my ebonics for a moment and celebrate with me okayyyy?!?!) Woo hoo~! * doing happy dance*

How relaxed my body gets after 30 minutes of running is amazing i mean I struggle to find my pace and get comfortable for the 1st 2 miles which normally equate to about 26 minutes give or take then when I hit 30 minutes it's smooth sailing i don't even think about my body anymore from there on I'm just taking in the scenary.

Man I know winter time is really gonna suck I'll be on the dreadmill like a hamster on an exercise wheel. but that's okay I'm still gonna keep at it.

Just a special note to a pmer on www.nappturality.com girl you really brightened my day today with that note of encouragement, hopefully you see this message you are the bomb! Keep at it and you'll soon see results!

Happy Anniversary to me!!!!!

Well okay guys it's the day of my weightloss anniversary. A year ago today I made up in my mind that enough is enough and I haven't looked back and at 54 lb lbs lighter with lots to go I'm just happy and praising God that I made it this far and I have lots of poundage to go but I'm ready for the next year and I'm determined to get more weight off. Kudos for 54 lbs but I'm not getting comfortable..........

Okay drama fit is over I'm doing better

Hey Guys,

Thanks so much for the votes of confidence I am feeling much much better. I guess that's what get for weighing in a day before my actual weigh in day. I got on the scale this morning and it was 5 lbs down from yesterday. Go figure right? ehh whatever........

Good news is that I was in such a slump yesterday that I went for an afterwork run just to De-stress, clear my mind, and lift my mood and I ended up running for like 48 minutes and I finished the whole swarréé in about 1 hour. I'm currently rethinking the gym membership bidness as of late, well because quite frankly a sista is broke and needs to get her car fixed and bills paid and I can workout for free so why ruin a good thing right? Anyways hubby has granted me permission to run in the mornings again yay me now I just have to get a jacket with reflectors on it and carry a .22 in the pocket LOL. No but seriously I will have some mase just in case....hey that rhymed LOL. I'm a little sleepy hence a bit of slap happiness.

Good news is Tomorrow I will be celebrating one year of weightloss, down side is that for the past 6 months I have been sorta weightloss challenged. As of September 28, 2005 I will have lost a total of 54 lbs. yayyy me right? Well hopefully if and when I make it to September 28, 2006 I'll be down to 108 lbs loss then I'll only have about 30-40 lbs to go. Man, that seems like alot but that's okay I didn't put the weight on overnight so it's not coming off that fast.

I honestly wonder if I need to join some kind of weightloss program again like weightwatchers to see the scale move, or try the south beach diet or something because this fat is holding on for dear life one day it leaves next day it's back with a avengance. I don't subscribe to diets because I don't wanna be trapped into any kind of system I want my eating habits to be changed for life not just until the weight comes off. I don't know what I'm gonna do I think I'll maybe go to sleep first and then I can clear my head and think a little more straight on this whole subject.

Well thanks for lending me your eyes TTFN "waving"

Poo Poo Party

I suck didley uck! I ain't even gon' front, I have no excuse I'm such a loser today LLOOOSSSEEERRRRR!!! Must drink some more water *chanting to myself*

How about I just got on the scale and it says I'm almost eight lbs up
*dead*

I cain't take all this no mo yall!!!! I'm ret to give up *singing sob song*.
But I 'm not gonna do it yall, no sir I'm not gonna do it!! Imma keepin on truckin though, but today I am so upset I cannot tell a lie. I just put in about 3 packs of kinky extension so I know there may possibly be about 2-3 maybe even 5 lbs weight gain from that LOL but dang 7-8 lbs I just don't get it *shrugs*

Today is just not a good day at all. *walks out head hung low*

Bally's Update

Well I went to Bally's on my lunch yesterday to check out this month to month deal so I could see what the catch was and check out their equipment, their operating hours and their daycare. When I went in the first person I see is a guy I used to go to school with. He is a personal trainer. We say our howdy do's then he gives me a quick tour of the place and we discuss our options. The prices were pretty feasible to not be locked into some 12-24 month contract but there was just something about this bally's I dunno it seems a bit...small or something I just don't know. Anyways I told him that I may be interested and my husband may be interested as well so we set up an appointment to meet with the guy Saturday and discuss if we're interested or not. I get a free 7 day pass for the week so today I go to the gym on my lunch break.
I was going to go early this morning to get my run in but because of a blackout that we had the night before from a terrible thunder and lightning storm that caused me to be up until 12Am I just couldn't get up at 5:25 and head to the gym. I get to the gym and I get directions as to where the locker rooms are and blah blah blah. The lockerrooms are very nice spacious there's a gazillion lockers and even an scale off to the side in the locker room and shower stalls and such. Well I'm so used to just hopping into the restroom at the hotel I normally workout in and changing I chose to change clothes in one of the handicap stalls and come out and get my workout on. I must completely admit that everything I did I compared it to the hotel that i normally work out in. The hotel is quiet, sectioned off, and nobody EVER comes in there to workout. There is one big television with a remote to it, you workout in an airconditioned room that you can control the amount of heat and/or air that you want blowing on you and blah blah blah.
Anyways I come out of the dressing rooms and go to the treadmills and see that the treadmills that Bally's uses are the EXACT same as the one little treadmill in the hotel. Then there are 3 different televisions in the room but they are all fixed on the money or weather channel or some other boring station(thank God I brought my CD player and Headphones whew). The treadmills sit directly in front of the windows so when you run you can look outside which pretty much attribute to you feeling like a hamster on a exercise wheel just running in place. There is a row of treadmills, then there is a row of stationary bikes, then there is a row of recumbant bikes then there is a row of stairmasters old and new then there is a row of ellipictals I don't know but it was just too informal for me. So After I ran for about 25 minutes I walk over to the weights to see where I want to work and run into and old friend of mines that I used to have the biggest crush on in high school and actually had a semi-quasi friendship/flirtship with years ago (presaved and prebabyLOL). He's always been into PT and football and I got a chance to chat with him then I went to lift s0me weights. NOW the weights section is really what I like about this place they have every single weight imaginable that you can think of and it's open and free space up in that place!!! The hotel's fitness center really doesn't have alot of weights. There used to be some orange girly 10 lb weights but those aren't even there anymore. There is a extension/squat machine in the hotel's fitness area but I need more variety than that. After my workouts I was wondering if they had towels that they provided but from what I saw most of the people there brought their own towels and water bottles. Thank GodI filled up on water before I got to the gym that was a BIG downer for Bally's because the hotel's fitness center not only provides towels for it's people it also has a water machine thingy in the fitness room. So all in all I think that this hotel's fitness center has really spoiled me because I just don't see paying all of that money to go to this gym when I currently go to a fitness center for free you know what I mean? And this little fitness center in this hotel has a jacuzzi, and swimming pool and a sauna. The reason I was looking for more is because after working out in the same spot by yourself for 3 years you kinda want a change......ya know different scenery and I really feel as if I need so much more variety with the weights but that is just not worth it. I mean what really got me was that the treadmill that I ran on there was the EXACT same treadmill that I run on at the hotel but atleast I can watch tv and I'm there by myself. My decision has already been made but I think I am gonna milk this 7 day free pass and get in as much weight training as I can.

Great new deal for Bally's

Hey guys,

I just saw a new commercials that Bally's will be sponsoring month to month memberships!!! Now that would be right up my alley for my morning runs to help my hubby feel more comfortable. Instead of me hitting the pavement in the dark during early morning hours I could just go to the gym and I wouldn't have to worry about 5 year and 2 year contracts and such. I can really only commit to once a month and afford that. Plus my little fitness center that I go to on my lunch breaks is so small there isn't much equipment at all as a matter of fact I've been working out on those same 3 or 4 machines for 3 years LOL. I may possibly be going there soon and very soon.
Oh yeah and also Saturday I went on my long weekend run with a girlfriend of mines and it was really nice. She is walking now and trying to get back into shape, so while she walked I ran and the kids were out on the loop with us. I am so proud of my baby girl because she sees me running and now she wants to run too. She almost ran a complete mile while we were out there. I attribute much of her endurance to cheerleading practice. They run pretty much while they have practice so she's used to running now. I have also noticed as of this morning my spare tire is shrinking. Pretty soon they will disentegrate(sp) down to some regular old love handles and then purty soon they'll be gone yippee LOL! Yesterday we had a family reunion for my side of the family and I got to where my cute little shirt it's an orange wife beater material like t shirt and it says Good Hair on the front with some exotic eyes and some strings of hair and the back of the shirt has a definition of Good Hair. Hair that is kept in good condition texture is of no importance. I love that shirt and I actually got to wear it and my stomach wasn't sticking out or hanging over the top of my pants LOL. I would never go out like that anyways but I've seen women try to pull that look off . I was extremely pleased with how my body is reshaping especially with this weight lifting. The only thing I don't care for with the weightlifting is that heavy feeling and the soreness. Man I am really sore 1-2 days after working a particular muscle group, I guess I'll just have to get used to it though because it really is shaping my muscles and melting the fat on my body. I have alot more fat to be melted before I can actually see some definition BUT I can feel and see me shrinking for the first time in a long time.

Morning Run Delayed *hpmh*

I'm not sure what my body is doing nowaday s but I've been waking up at like 3-4 o'clock here lately completely energized after having just went to sleep at 11:00-11:30pm. This morning I got up at like 3am then laid back down and then 4 o'clock went to use the restroom and laid back down and tossed and turned until 5 am and said Oh whatever I'm getting up I usually run @ 5:45am anyways. So I get dressed get a cup of tea and read some scriptures then here I am all set to go out and run feeling good feeling great then DH calls out to me out of his sleep and tells me to come'ere So I go to the back and he tells me he has a very very bad feeling about me running this morning please don't go out to run this morning in the neighborhood. He said he was having bad dreams and everything about it. So instead of going out for my morning jog I politely sit down super irritated because I was really pumped up for my run and I began to pray. After praying I threw in a FIRM upper Body tape and called it a day. I know that the seasons are changing so when I go out for my normal early morning run it's no longer sunrise by the time I get done as a matter of fact it's still very dark out and the neighborhood that I live in is not exactly running loop-worthy if ya KWIM LOL, but the neighborhood is extremely family oriented fairly small I mean I know EVERYBODY there, but I must admit I do think I need to get some mase(sp) to take along with me in the mornings ya never know who's out there waiting for ya *shrugs*. I hate to admit this guys but I was really upset because I couldn't go out for my morning run. I mean like I said I couldn't really sleep past 3 o'clock, and I was pumped and ready to get some fresh air clear my mind and be proud of my little wind sprints. Is that so wrong? I honestly cannot run at any other time of the day because my schedule is jam packed every day of the week. I hope he doesn't get worried to the point where I can't even get in my morning run in. I really really love that alone time and the fact that I'm moving and I can feel the different muscles in my body that are working harder than others and because I run so early in the morning no one sees me running it's just me the pavement and God . I have some really indepth conversations with him when I run.
I just hope it doesn't come to this and according to my training routine I'm trying to figure out how to get this run in *mopes* Anyhoo that's my update for the day

TTFN

Girl unnt uhhh Failure is not an option

While at work today I realized some startling things around the office. Well as you all know in January everyone comes up with these blissfully painful resolutions such as losing weight, quitting smoking, not committing to men that will hurt them, Not chasing men or women anymore but finally settling down and blah blah blah. Well it seems that by June most of the resolutions are broken, and by September they've vanished into thin air no longer to be remembered for all mankind. We'll I looked around my office and really REALIZED the truth in this observation. Almost everyone that has had a resolution aren't sticking to them. One of our coworkers was losing weight pretty drastically and he looked very nice with the weight off and last week we had a work picnic in which he was the chef(he does it every year). He still looked fairly thin last week (or was that two weeks ago) , anyways today we had a meeting and he attended and I promise to goodness it looks like every lb that he lost he has put back on. Then there a lady in my office an older black lady that keep's the pharmacy in her desk drawers and the kitchen in her cabinets that claims to be on some kind of diet ALL OF THE TIME but you never see her lose any weight. She has atleast three different huge bottles of vitamins sitting on her desk she barely works always has headphones on munchin on something, knows everything there is about losing weight but still jumps on every bandwagon that comes along and never loses any weight. Then there are the already fit people that pretty much show off their goods... which by instance I don't criticize at all because if you've worked hard to get it then by all means show it off!!! As I was observing all of this I looked at myself and wondered where I fit in.

Well I've given away almost all of my bigger clothing to people that needed it or so they say and I am left with 3-4 outfits in my old size and so to be comfortable I decided to wear this outfit. It's a pretty floral green and cream colored dress (and for those of you that know me I hate floral clothing yuk! But this one is cute as a matter of fact I have this dress in two different colors) that I bought when I was much bigger. This dress is a size 3x to be exact and because I wanted to be comfortable and floaty I threw the dress on. I think this may have been the biggest mistake I've ever made. I look like I am my old size in this dress and it scared me to bits!!!! i must and I mean absolutely MUST get rid of this dress! I thought back to when I actually could FIT this dress even at my biggest size it looked Good on me because no matter what size I was I had a nice shape. well now that I've lost the weight it looks like a big potato sack on me. Normally I'd be overjoyed at this but because it makes me look like an overgrown RECTANGLE I just can't take it!! I put this dress on and automatically thought about the woman that I work with with the pharmacy in her cube and the kitchen in her cabinets and freaked out. I look as if I talk a good game about losing weight but my clothes make it look as if I have gained every ounce back. I have to go home and change ASAP!!!! I can't wait to get out of here.

AS you all know(if you haven't read some former blogs) September is my New Year's so I'm going to step it up a notch and get rid of all these potato sack dresses and get in gear. I've joined RBG's 12 week challenge so it's on and poppin now. I will not be the wanna be thin office lady I WILL BE the thin office lady LOL.

Well thanks for lending me your eyes and understanding and until next time......

TTFN

Self Sabotage is over as of....NOW

have to do some inventory on myself here lately because I seem to be getting a tid bit lazy with my workouts they haven't been as frequent. I haven't gained anything significant I think I just have to get my body out of maintenance mode and get it into losing mode. Last week Monday, I weighed myself and the scale reported 249.6 woohooo right? Well I can feel that I've atleast gained some of this weight back but for my conscious sake I'm going to continue to say and feel that I weigh 249.6 LOL.

My mini goal that is the tip of the iceberg for me is to get my waist down to 39 inches right now I teeter totter with 42-40 inches on a daily basis depending on if I exercise that day so hopefully within the next couple of weeks or so I can get down to 39 inches.

I also have a confession to make. I think today must be a self sabotage day although I am getting it back on track RIGHT NOW. I just had a snickers candy bar yall.... yep that's right I missed my mark by eons I haven't had a snickers in almost 1 year probably over 1 year to be exact and I had a small six pack of oreo cookies ready and a small bag of chex mix party snacks. That dang blastit snack machine okay so I'm telling myself right this very moment all of that was in the past and now I'm working towards the future! I have to think results and get a grip before a grip gets me!!! I am better and stronger than this and I will make it!!! Think Results!! My water intake hasn't been up to par either so I know I have lots of work to do! I'm catching these symptoms early and fixing them in every way that I know how. Sometimes it's easier to talk about all of this stuff and/or type inspirational things to make me look like I'm doing A O.K. But a sista is getting a handle on this off the screen as well as on the screen today. Any comments of inspiration are welcome if you're out there in blogger land. This is my S.O.S help a sista out yall! It's new year for me my goals start today and I have a 90 day goal of losing 15 lbs. It took me 7 months to lose 21 lbs comfortably so hopefully 15 lbs in 90 days is feasible. I'm being realistic here, yeah I could lose 20 lbs in 2 months and I could lose 2 lbs a week to get a gigantic weightloss thing going but on the real it just doesn't happen like that for me. I don't want my weight coming off too fast because then that'll scare me into thinking that it will be put back on just that fast so a new year a new goal for I and I.

I am the kind of person that since I was small counted my years in terms of school years. My beginning of the year has always been in September and my end of the year has always been June LOL . No disrespect to New Years Day in January but really that just throws a monkey wrench into the way that I think so septemeber it is. After all most of my anniversary things revolve around sept. anyways. My job anniversary is Sept. 4, My weightloss anniversary is Sept. 28th, my wedding anniversary is Oct 5th, My nappy anniversary is December. So why not just make september the new year LOL?

50 Deadliest Dieting Mistakes

I came across this article and thought I'd post it because it has great tips!

50 Deadliest Dieting Mistakes
By Julia Griggs Havey eDiets Master Motivator


1. Having a negative defeatist attitude.

2. Going on any diet that is NOT a manner of eating that you can adhere to for the rest of your life.

3. Believing that you can eat cabbage soup -- or any other low-cal, but monotonous fare -- every
day for the rest of your life.

4. Obesessing over counting calories.

5. Weighing in too frequently.

6. Not drinking enough water.

7. Drinking sugar-laden drinks.

8. Eating more bread, pasta and potatoes than proteins, lean meats, fruits and vegetables.

9. Consuming processed foods more often than fresh foods.

10. Taking the benefits away from vegetables by overcooking them.

11. Not having a plan.

12. Blaming others for your shortcomings.

13. Being quick to judge.

14. Not being aware of the nutritional benefits or detriments of what you consume.

15. Finishing every last bite of a meal, even after you are full.

16. Going back for seconds at meals.

17. Eating at "all-you-can-eat buffets" and consuming large amounts "to get your money's
worth."

18. Skipping breakfast.

19. Starving all day.

20. Bingeing after "falling off the wagon" and then waiting until "tomorrow" to get back on track.

21. Thinking you are genetically destined to be fat.

22. Not believing that you have the courage to change.

23. Confusing "fat" as a personality trait.

24. Thinking you are unattractive.

25. Not living each day to the fullest... thinking that will come when you are thinner.

26. Wasting time.

27. Not finishing tasks you begin.

28. Postponing tasks that need attention.

29. Rationalizing.

30. Thinking pills, powders or potions are more powerful than they really are in achieving weight loss.

31. Thinking of exercise as a chore, instead of a way to improve your health and your life. 32.
Not scheduling exercise as a vital part of your day and week.

33. Indulging excessively in alcohol.

34. Watching sports rather than participating in sports.

35. Watching too much television. 36. Not giving enough time to personal hygiene and
appearance.

37. Refusing to read self-improvement materials on a regular basis.

38. Giving up and resigning yourself to being "fat."

39. Finishing the food off of your family's plates while you are doing the dishes.

40. Tasting and nibbling on food while you are cooking it.

41. Baking cookies, pies and cakes more often than for holidays or very special occasions.

42. Always having candy in dishes, supposedly for guests, but eating more of it yourself.

43. Buying unhealthy snack items "for the kids," but eating some yourself.

44. Not having vegetables and/or fruit with each meal.

45. Serving more carbohydrates than any other food group for meals.

46. Thinking that "dieting" sprees -- and not total lifestyle change -- will garner lasting weight loss results.

47. Not visualizing yourself actually living and enjoying a healthy lifestyle.

48. Not taking vitamins and proper supplements.

49. Consuming fast foods on a regular basis.

50. Waiting for tomorrow to "get started" rather than RIGHT NOW! http://www.ediets.com/news/article.cfm/cmi_378053

RANT RANT RANT

I've tried to be smiles and sunshine all day but at some point the joints broke in my finely tuned engine of a mind I am so upset that I just paid 47.08 to fill up my 4 cylinder 13 gallon car tank!!!!!! WHAT I just got back from the bank and the gas is on the rise so I figure I'd better fill up before it goes up. I went to the pump and regular unleaded is at $3.29 *tear*. My goodness I'm thinking to myself this is crazy, well the last time I filled up it was 2.59 and I paid like 35.00 to fill up. So maybe this'll be like 38-40.00 to fill up. And as I sat there watching the meter. My gas was at 6.00 gallons and the tab was 20.00?!?! Since when has it taken 20 dollars to put six gallons of gas in the tank!! Then I get this email that says, so this is what our $2.60 per gallon pays for:






In case you're wondering where this hotel is, it isn't a hotel at all. It is a house! It's owned by the family of Sheikh Zayed bin Sultan Al Nahyan, the former president of the United Arab Emirates and ruler of Abu-Dhabi.

WAY to go BUSH "twirls finger in the air" anybody got a paddle so I can smack him in the head ? >:(

Running victory

Today I got up this morning and did my normal run and I'm trying to stretch my runs to over 40 minutes because my doctor told me that running or any kind of cardio past 30 minutes goes into a fat burning mode. And since I've been in a sorta kinda plateau lately I switched my run up. I ran all the way around my neighborhood this morning and it was great!!!! There is a humongous hill where I live and I could never imagine running up that hill nonetheless walking up that hill and I did it today! Yay me! I don't even know why I hyped this hill up to be so much more than what it already is, I mean I run every other day up many many different hills but because this was one great big hill I made it into a mountain. I just made sure to pace myself and run up the hill and it was no sweat at all! so woopie I did thank you Jesus! After i ran I walked to cool down a little then sat for a minute then came in the house and as soon as I came into the house I prayed. I prayed for some relationship issues to be revived between me and God because I have been slacking and I mean REALLY slacking lately. I know the saying 'no prayer, no power' and I am not trying to be stuck in this area ESPECIALLY when prayer is my calling. I am an intercessor and it would make absolutely no sense for that to be my calling and I'm not praying. I dunno what happened to me where my intimacy was just lacking. I think I just have too much stuff on my plate that need to be put on the back burner for now because God always comes first.