The Firm's Tough Tape 2, Oh my aching Buttocks!!!!!

IF there is anyone out there looking for a tough workout to amp up your cardio and weight training try this out. http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/B00005T336/104-0135804-4319176?v=glance



It's a 45 minute nonstop workout that works both upper body and lower body and abdominals and Ohhh BABY is it tough. I can honestly say that this tape is by far one of the hardest workouts I;ve ever had.

My glutes(butt) and Thighs are still on fiyah and I did the workout 2 days ago. But ofcourse me being the competitive little soul that I am loves a challenge so I'm gonna work this tough tape workout until it's easy and cheesy for me. I'll continue to think results and slim my body in the process.

I thought I'd give reviews for you all out there looking for a "challenging" workout and need to kick up the fiyah and switch it up. It's on sale on Amazon for $0.25!

Day after Christmas

Hey guys,

Okay I actually stayed OP for Christmas yaaayyyyyy *does happy dance*
Now I have to stay focused the rest of this week. Leftovers are no joke. Now I'm trying out a new workout the tough tape 2 vhs tape from my FIRMS set. Pray for me yall.

100 Reasons to lose weight.

Okay so I stole this one so what!!!! LOL I love it nonetheless Whoever wrote this on alot of the reasons they read my mind:


To not shop at a ‘fat’ store
To not be the fattest Mom at school.
I don’t want to avoid mirrors.
I don’t want think that everyone wonders why my hubby is with the fat woman.
I don’t want my lap to disappear when I sit down.
I want to wear a bikini.
I don’t want to be the biggest girl on the block.
I want to go into Victoria Secret and not get dirty looks.
To not be embarrassed about my size.
I don’t want diabetes.
I want to tuck in my shirts
I want pants with snaps and zippers, and not elastic.
I don’t want to feel guilty about eating in front of others.
I don’t want my thighs to chafe when I wear a dress.
I want to carry my three year old without running out of breath or strength
To not get out of breath during sex.
To not hear the swish of panty hose No control top hose
To get up gracefully from the floor/couch/chair
To get ready for church without trying on 3 outfits
To not feel like an Amazon around DH/SO’s family
I want to be more than ‘you have a pretty face'
I want to dance, and not feel like the pink elephant in Fantasia
To skip the diet section at the bookstore.
I want to feel sexy
I want my fat clothes to fall off.
For people I haven’t seen in a long time, to not recognize me.
For people to stop assuming I’m a great cook, just because I’m fat
I want matching undies
To not wear Q size hose
To have all of my rings sized down
To not waddle when I walk
To be able to bend over to pick up something, not squat
To polish my toenails without looking like a contortionist
To sit in a chair, with my knees bent to my chin, and arms wrapped around my legs
To not have people ask me when I’m due
To not wake up with a back ache
To buy clothes bargains for the next year, and they fit
For my mother to stop calling me fat
To wear knee socks correctly
For my kids and hubby to be able to wrap their arms around me
To not have to worry about fitting in lawn furniture
To have stretch marks from pregnancy, not food weight gain
To not avoid having my picture taken
To shave/wax bikini area without having to move things out of the way
To wrap up in a bath towel, and have skin not show
I want my tummy to stop ‘smiling’ at me
I want one chin
I want a little black dress
I want to run more than 4 strides
I don’t want my tummy to flop when I run
I want to go braless with pride
I want to share clothes with my daughters when they are teens
I want to ride on a teeter totter with my hubby, and have my side actually go down
I want to sit on my DH/SO’s lap
I want to go on an amusement park ride, without checking the weight limit first
I want to see my collarbone
I want my cheekbones back
I want to go sleeveless
I want to weigh less than my DH/SO
I want to wear a button down the front shirt, with no safety pins
I want to enjoy clothes shopping
I want guys to check me out
To climb the false rock wall at Galayans
I want people to wonder why on Earth I’m at a Weight Watchers meeting
I want a 50 pound certificate from WW
I want a 100 pound certificate from WW
I want my seat belt to fit comfortably
I don’t want to crave sweets anymore
I don’t want to rely on food to ease my moods
I don’t want to eat when I’m bored
I want the rest of my body (hair/skin/nails) to reflect how healthy I am
I don’t want to be too heavy for high heels
I don’t want to be a couch potato
I want to wear a mini skirt
I want to wear thongs
I want to be able to wear DH/SO’s shirts
I don’t want my sides to hurt from lying on them at night
I don’t want my upper arms to wave when I wave
I want to see my muscles
I want to run the mini marathon
I want to run a marathon
I want to enter a wet T-shirt/hot legs contest~ or at least look like I could
I want people to say I look too thin
I want people to think I wear a size smaller than I do
I want to wear belts
I want a cute belly button
I want to wear low-rider jeans
I want to be able to see my hip bones
I don’t want cellulite
I want a flat tummy
I don’t want family to be afraid to buy me clothes as gifts
I want to DH to be jealous of male attention I get
I want to seen for how I look (just once) before anything else
I want to be spontaneous about having fun, and not worry about how I look
I want a smooth back , with no ‘bra fat’
I want my neck to look lean, with no rolls
I want a closet full of clothes that I can wear
I want to have beaten this challenge
I want to NEVER forget where I came from

I LOVE THIS hey a girl can dream can't she? lol

AHA Moments

WOW you guys I have something really personal to share and what they happen to be are some AHA moments that caused me to get serious and stay determinded to lose this weight. I have a picture that I have never posted jut out of sheer embarrassment but I feel now is the time to post it. This picture was my turning point. I didn't even recognize myself when I got this picture.


My aha moment straw that broke the camels back was in a doctors office when i was told that I was in the baby stages of Diabetes and I have Hypothyroidism and I am anemic. When the doctor told me that I flashed back to my grandmother would died because of diabetes and How she had to take insulin shots every single day and would run out of spots to take shots and stick herself over and over again, and taking tons of medicine and dialysis, losing eyesight, and amputated body parts. I just broke down. I was thinking. I am too young to have diabetes. I was 26 then. My doctor told me that because the diabetes was in the baby stages I could prevent it with weightloss and I got serious about losing weight then. I went back to the doctor 6 months later and there were no signs of diabetes praise God I had lost like 30 lbs in 6 months I went from 305 to 270 and all traces of high insulin levels were gone. My anemia had been severly reduced and to this day I only have to take my chromagen pills when TOm arrives. I also had a moment when I went to an amusement park and I LOVE riding the rides. WEll there was a particular ride that I wanted to get on and the bar would not close over my stomach. I was so embarrassed I just got off the ride and watched my little sister ride. and there was also this christmas picture that my aunt gave me that knocked me off of my feet. I couldn't even recognize that that was me until I looked at the clothing. And I thought I was fly that day too yall. I grew up very skinny and when I gained all that weight it just really baffled me I just kept saying how in the world did I get here? I haven't looked back since.

Deciding to follow along with the WW Plan

Well I've decided to follow along with the Wieght Watchers plan on my own since I've done it before I have some of the tools already and I frequently post on the SOWW board for encouragement and with the ladies of Nappturality.com. Tuesday mornings at 7:30 am are going to be my WI times. ANd today I am starting at 251.0. I have been plateauing and maintaining at a 55 lb loss for long enough it's time for this fat to fall off and I exercise enough obviously that's not going to cut it. I have to start monitoring my intake of calories vs. expenditure of calories. As much as I hate journaling it seems that this is the only way I can keep myself accountable. Well that's the story of my life right now. I just got done working out and now it's time to get dressed but I thought I'd let you all know what was going on with me as of late.

Getting to the root of the problem

Today was my day to reintroduce exercising into the program. I haven't been exercising since last thursday and then after having an emotional setback I rediscovered the emotional eating syndrome. I am also noticing that I am having a really hard time staying awake lately. I almost dosed off in church the other day and I'm tired at work. I have cut back on caffeine I never realized that hot chocolate has caffeine in it... or does it? Anyhoo I've ran out of hot chocolate and I seem to be really tired nowadays I have no idea what that's about.

Oh yeah guess what? I packed my lunch meals for the week yesterday. and I have planned out to eat them on the right days. Now all I've gotta do is find someone to wash all of those dishes LOL. I'm trying out this cooking Sunday for the rest of the week thing that I've heard of ppl doing it and I wanna see how this works out.

I've also got up offa my bum and made some jello to keep around the house as MY snacks. I've come to realize that I have an uncontrollable appetite when it comes to cookies and chips. Whenever my Dh buys treats for the family I don't know it's like I go crazy with it. I'll pack some of it up for snacks. I'll snack on them while I'm preparing dinner, I'll eat them while I'm bored watching tv or reading. I am actually Glad that I have pinpointed the problem with my eating uncontrollably and what's so funny about is that the way that I eat is the same pattern that I had when I smoked. I would smoke as a habit whenever I was bored, on the toilet, driving, I had to have one when I woke up and right before bed. Reading, watching tv. It's like at those specific times I had to have a cigarette because those were the times that it was needed. But it really wasn't it was a mind game. Now that I know where my weaknesses with the eating come in I now have to pray and find guidance on how to overcome those urges. I told my hubby coming up that I lived in a house with 7 ppl and when food was brought in it was every man for himself. You ate what you could and that was the end of it. If you didn't get the goods then you were just out of luck. I think I still carry that curse because like I said when he brings snacks home it's like every man for himself in my home and it drives DH crazy. I know I've rambled about this but this is really breakthrough for me you guys.....

WOW I think I've actually discovered the problem with my habitual eating. woohoo yayy for me LOL. Okay now that I've ran my mouth and found some answers I'm going to go get my sweat on LOL.

~~ TODAY I will NOT get fatter. I can committ to today!~~

Healing, restoration, and beginning to trust again

To make a long story short about the other post. I went through a really bad issue where i was let down. It was involving work. My frustration was not the fact that I didn't get this position. My frustration was with the fact that God has promised something to me and I put all I had into believing in that promise and then it was turned around to where I didn't receive the blessing. I was upset because I'd felt like God had set me up just to knock me back down. I was fed up and upset. In my personal life I have alot of financial problems and that came out as well in my last rant.
But I thank God for the people... the saints of God continuing to encourage me and help me see a different side of the blessing. I am doing much much better and I have resolved no matter what to just trust God and roll with the punches. I know that the promise that God gave me still stands I just haven't seen it yet. Today I had to put on the spirit of praise for the spirit of heaviness and have the anointing of God break that yoke of a broken heart that I had.
I am entering into a new level of faith and so it's all new to me and I thank God even in my sufferings because I know that it will help someone else in the future when I give my testimony.
I haven't prayed exercised or anything these past couple of days and my eating hasn't been the best but thank God for his grace and mercy for it is renewed daily and today I have the ability to take control of myself. Service today was excellent. And now I'm kickin back watching the Bengals whoop up on Detroit so all is well lol.
My motto that I took from someones post is. Today I WILL NOT get fatter, I can committ to today lol. Thanks for all of your kind notes. It really does help me and thanks for hanging in there with me.
Love

Nothing even matters

Nothing I do matters anymore, No matter how I feel I never can get ahead I want to give up and just quit.

I'm tired of drowning financially and when I say drowning I MEAN drowning....I'm tired of trying so hard and always being everyones sunshine when all i get is a kick in the teeth

No matter how much I don't get the things that I work hard for and deserve I still keep going and I'm too through with everything.

How's my bills gonna get paid making the bullcrap wages I makeHow are we gonna celebrate christmas when there is nothing to celebrate if we're evicted and the lights get cut off?I'm tired of trying I'm soo sooo tired of coming up short.

Nothing I ever do is enough!!!!!

I quit!

(but no matter how much I want to give up I just keep hearing donnie mcclurkin say***after you've done all you can you just standdddddd****)

And no I'm not depressed or down and out I'm all the way full out PISSED OFF!

fortunately although I'm mad I don't feel like eating crap right now How convenient

**eta well I blew that last thought just got back from cici's pizza and I ate like a malnourished PIG! Good thing I got my workouts in today and I'm done for the day.

BLEH BLEH!

I felt it only right

To let you guys know that even though I am a terrible blogger I appreciate all of your encouraging words and nagging me to know what in the world I am doing and why I ain't updated lol.

Truth be told I am actually a terrible journaler. I never liked writing in school especially on paper and I still don't like it and maybe that explains my procrastination as far as staying on top of this blog.

Life is life, ya know. I'm still working out, still tryin to eat better. Still trying my best to glorify God in all I do. My kids are growing and the hubby is still the worlds best teddy bear ;D. I am actually awaiting to hear about a position that I applied for that will literally change my Life. now if only the boss of that job would get back with me and let me know something, I'm going nuts thinking about this posititon and the opportunities that will be behind it.

My weight is FINALLY coming off yay for that I'm holding steady again at 249.8 and I am not hopping back on the scale until Next Tuesday.


Oh Oh guess what I got a compliment on my hair today how cool is that. A woman that I work with told me that she loves my hair and she just never got the chance to tell me before. That really made my day. i referred her to come to Nappturality.com and check us old biddies out and she might find something that she likes. This is another black woman that's trying to figure out how to work with her natural texture. I hope she find some information and uses to bring out those beautiful coils and curls that God has blessed her with.

I woke up too tired to do my billy blanks workout this morning and DH is watching tv so I can't throw it in right now so I think I may pop a the FIRM VHS in back in our room and get my pumpin iron/aerobics on in a hot minute.

Hang in there guys with me and stay on my case about updating please I LOVE YOU ALL *hugs and smoochies*

A little under the weather but not defeated

A little under the weather but not defeated
Thursday, December 08, 2005
Hey guys,
I have to get better on this updating stuff but unfortunately I really hate to write and all that Good stuff.
After Thanksgiving I wasn't feeling the best and My weight was up. I could feel it and I stayed tired. Well I got on the scale that Monday after thanks giving and had to face facts. I was at 260. WOW I didn't realize how easy it is to put the lbs back on. And the next day after much prayer I heard the mottto That God gave me It was Failing to plan means planning to fail. So guess what? I got but behind back on the wagon and began exercising and eating better and I have joined a challenge to lose 10 lbs by New Years eve. The healthy way that is..... Well I've been working out consistently doing my billy blanks dvd and getting on the stairmaster at lunch and eating better and I'm back to 253.4. I just want to get back down to 249 so I can lose weight from my last lowest weight so far. I was in denial about my eating and slacking on my exercise but seeing some success stories from other people can be just the thing that gives you the kick in the rear to get it together. I am going to glorify God with my health and a smaller size in shape to be able to praise him without getting tired or being pooped at the end of the day. I Was doing really Good up until about May of This year, that's when the plateau set in. I know I have to step up my game and I am doing that and I am determined to lose 10 lbs by New years eve. Hopefully more than 10 lbs if I stay on plan. I've been weighing my options on going to WW because I've done it before and it was a success. I just don't have the funds to do it right now but I will soon. And until then I will continue to work my program.

AS I said earlier I'm a little under the weather so I'm going to go lay down but I thought I'd atleast give you guys an update on me. God is still in control and he is doing some amazing things in my life spiritually and naturally that I'm not a liberty to discuss right now but just know that God is worthy of all honor glory and praise. As a matter of fact he's worth more than we give him credit for. The bible says that the earth is the Lord's and the fullness thereof so that means that everything in this earth belongs to God. We can belong to God as well but we have a freewill choice to choose to serve him and ask him to come into our hearts to have a relationship with him. Jesus is the reason for the season and I although I celebrate him everyday I can't help being excited about his birthday coming up. We usually bake a cake and sing happy birthday Jesus on his birthday. I'm excited thinking about doing that soon. I love the Lord yall and I'm telling you I have more fun in Jesus than I ever had living in worldly ways. My kids have come to LOVE christmas and it has NOTHING to do with the gift giving it's about the family traditions that we use to celebrate Jesus. I thank God for them enjoying it. Okay guys I'm going to lay down now yall take care *waving*